Lost in consciousness

Reality

"Imagination is the only weapon in the war against reality." - Lewis Carroll

Grapple at the reigns of reality

I don't want to fall down any deeper

Because once do I fear

I won't get out

My fear is overtaking me

My heartbeat speeds up

And

I need to escape from my own

Body

Away from my own mind

Myself

But there's nowhere to go but earth

I am confined to the space I know

I wish there was a way to see things differently

I feel trapped in the space I was given

I claw at the sides but there is now way out

No

Way

Out

Panic sets in and I try to breathe

Go on a a run and make sense of it all

Stand under the burning water of the shower

To try to feel something more

I stand there and wish for change

Wish I could find it within myself

I feel numb.

I decide it's time

To try something new

I wish I could climb the highest mountains and

Forget about you

Not just you, everyone

Who has ever made my life a living hell

Leave them all behind to where it's just

Me, myself, and my mind

But I wouldn't be struggling against the confines

I would be truly free

I would breathe in the cold fresh air

Go on adventurous voyages and

Leave everyone I knew behind and

Wouldn't even care.