𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐚 𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐛𝐢𝐨; 𝐦𝐚𝐟𝐢𝐨𝐬𝐨♛

♛𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐲 𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭♛

y/n's pov:
it had been a month since i last saw mattia. i continúe going to the r&b of course, but he doesn't go. his friends go here and there. but never him. i closed off today, as i hugged the coat tighter to my body. i licked my lips as the cold made me shiver. i walked slowly as i thought about life.

how it could've been different if i never met him, i could've been okay now. i could be happy. i shook my head chuckling. yet again, i don't imagine life without him. i arrived home as soph was already in bed. i touched bentley as i kissed his head. i walked upstairs as tears began to fill my eyes again.

why can't he love me?

i walked into my room sighing, looking at a picture i had of him and i. i touched it softly, "i love you" i whispered, i gulped closing my eyes. i'm going to be okay. "i love you too" a deep voice said behind me. my eyebrows furrowed as i looked behind me. "m-mattia?" i said looking for him. the dark light didn't let me see his figure.

a soft hand placed on my shoulder as i gasped. "it's just me babygirl." i sighed as i threw myself on him. "i missed you so much" i cried, "why'd you leave me?" i sniffled. "i'm so sorry princess" he gulped making me close my eyes. "i was afraid- afraid of love. i never had anyone that loved me like you did. and i was afraid of hurting you. so i pushed you away" he said.

"i pushed you away til my body forcefully brought me back to you. i couldn't go a day without thinking about you. a day without going to r&b to at least breathe the same air as you. or simply see you walk around. i had to be with you. even if it was from afar. i love you y/n i love you so much that i can't live without you" he said as i let tears slip down my eyes.

i grabbed his face placing his lips on mine, "i love you" i whispered against his lips as i sighed. "be mine. again" he quickly said. "yes yes" i said hugging him. he kissed my neck as i closed my eyes. i felt alive again, i felt his love. and this time it wasn't leaving.

a/n:
i'm so sorry, i'm so sorry for leaving without an explanation. i've been going through so much it's been haunting me for the past 2 months. i guess i didn't have motivation to keep going, even writing. something i loved felt so boring to me. i think i really outgrew wattpad this time. it breaks my heart to say it. but i guess i really did this time. but i want to finish this book because you guys deserve it. thank you for all your comments. i peeped them, but there's just so many. i hope you guys enjoy this chapter. might be the last book i ever finish. thank you for your endless support. so much love <33