CASSETTE 1: SIDE A

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Hello, boys and girls. Hannah Baker here. Live and in stereo.

I don’t believe it.

No return engagements.

No encore. And this time, absolutely no requests.

No, I can’t believe it. Hannah Baker killed herself.

I hope you’re ready, because I’m about to tell you the story of my life. More specifically, why my life
ended. And if you’re listening to these tapes, you’re one of the reasons why.

What? No!

I’m not saying which tape brings you into the story. But fear not, if you received this lovely little box,
your name will pop up…I promise.
Now, why would a dead girl lie?
Hey! That sounds like a joke. Why would a dead girl lie? Answer: Because she can’t stand up.

Is this some kind of twisted suicide note?

Go ahead. Laugh.

Oh well. I thought it was funny.

Before Hannah died, she recorded a bunch of tapes.

Why?

The rules are pretty simple. There are only two. Rule number one: You listen. Number two: You pass it
on. Hopefully, neither one will be easy for you.

“What’s that you’re playing?”

“Mom!”

I scramble for the stereo, hitting several buttons all at once.

“Mom, you scared me,” I say.

“It’s nothing. A school project.”

My go-to answer for anything. Staying out late? School project. Need extra money? School project.

And now, the tapes of a girl.

A girl who, two weeks ago, swallowed a handful of pills.

School project.

“Can I listen?” she asks.

“It’s not mine,” I say I scrape the toe of my shoe against the concrete floor.

“I’m helping a friend. It’s for
history. It’s boring.”

“Well, that’s nice of you,” she says.

She leans over my shoulder and lifts a dusty rag, one of my old cloth
diapers, to remove a tape measure hidden underneath.
Then she kisses my forehead. “I’ll leave you in peace.”

I wait till the door clicks shut, then I place a finger over the Play button.

My fingers, my hands, my arms,
my neck, everything feels hollow.

Not enough strength to press a single button on a stereo.

I pick up the cloth diaper and drape it over the shoebox to hide it from my eyes.

I wish I’d never seen
that box or the seven tapes inside it.

Hitting Play that first time was easy. A piece of cake.

I had no idea what I was about to hear.

But this time, it’s one of the most frightening things I’ve ever done.

I turn the volume down and press Play.

…one: You listen. Number two: You pass it on. Hopefully, neither one will be easy for you.

When you’re done listening to all thirteen sides—because there are thirteen sides to every story—rewind
the tapes, put them back in the box, and pass them on to whoever follows your little tale.

And you, lucky number thirteen, you can take the tapes straight to hell.

Depending on your religion, maybe I’ll see you there.

In case you’re tempted to break the rules, understand that I did make a copy of these tapes.

Those copies will be released in a very public manner if this package doesn’t make it through all of you.

This was not a spur-of-the-moment decision.

Do not take me for granted…again.

No. There’s no way she could think that.

You are being watched.

My stomach squeezes in on itself, ready to make me throw up if I let it.

Nearby, a plastic bucket sits
upside-down on a footstool.

In two strides, if I need to, I can reach the handle and flip it over.

I hardly knew Hannah Baker.

I mean, I wanted to. I wanted to know her more than I had the chance.

Over the summer, we worked together at the movie theater.

And not long ago, at a party, we made out.
But we never had the chance to get closer.
And not once did I take her for granted.

Not once.

These tapes shouldn’t be here. Not with me.

It has to be a mistake.
Or a terrible joke.

I pull the trash can across the floor. Although I checked it once already, I check the wrapping again.

A return address has got to be here somewhere.

Maybe I’m just overlooking it.

Hannah Baker’s suicide tapes are getting passed around.

Someone made a copy and sent them to me as a joke.

Tomorrow at school, someone will laugh when they see me, or they’ll smirk and look away.

And then I’ll know.

And then? What will I do then?
I don’t know.

I almost forgot.

If you’re on my list, you should’ve received a map.

I let the wrapping fall back in the trash.

I’m on the list.

A few weeks ago, just days before Hannah took the pills, someone slipped an envelope through the vent
of my locker.
The outside of the envelope said:
SAVE THIS—YOU’LL NEED IT in red felt-tip marker.

Inside was a folded up map of the city.

About a dozen red stars marked different areas around town.

In elementary school, we used those same chamber of commerce maps to learn about north, south, east,
and west.

Tiny blue numbers scattered around the map matched up with business names listed in the margins.

I kept Hannah’s map in my backpack.

I meant to show it around school to see if anyone else got one.

To see if anyone knew what it meant.

But over time, it slid beneath my textbooks and notebooks and I
forgot all about it.

Till now.

Throughout the tapes, I’ll be mentioning several spots around our beloved city for you to visit.

I can’t force you to go there, but if you’d like a little more insight, just head for the stars.

Or, if you’d like, just throw the maps away and I’ll never know.

As Hannah speaks through the dusty speakers, I feel the weight of my backpack pressing against my
leg.

Inside, crushed somewhere at the bottom, is her map.

Or maybe I will.

I’m not actually sure how this whole dead thing works.

Who knows, maybe I’m
standing behind you right now.

With love,
K.xoxo

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