I am him ✔

Chapter 45- Whatever

After really uttering this sentence, Kongpob realized that it was not that difficult to act according to his own mind.

But M's suddenly pale face still made his heart clench.　

M stayed for a while before he finished digesting his words and spoke with trembling lips, "Didn't we have a deal?"

Kongpob took a deep breath and looked at him seriously, "M, tell me honestly, what's going through your mind?"

"I...I..." M looked at him frantically, his mind so confused that he couldn't find anything appropriate to say at the moment, "I just don't people to make fun of me and now everyone knows I'm with you, and you break up with me because of him."

M's eyes were a little red.　

He was really unhappy in his heart, and these words didn't represent his heart. In fact a lot of times, in front of Kongpob, he didn't have to bother performing at all. Because his jealousy towards Arthit almost never faded, it was eating away at his heart every moment.

Kongpob looked at him like this, and his heart felt uncomfortable again. In M, he seemed to see himself who was rejected by Arthit. Also in love with someone who couldn't possibly be in love with himself, a mess that no one would want anyone else to see.

M was unhappy, and when he faced Arthit, how could he really be happy?　

But even though he understood M's sadness, he still whispered: "M, no one will laugh at you because of this, it's just a break up, it's no big deal. It's just a break up. As time goes by, people will forget about it, but if we have to keep lying, when will it end? And Tew and the others, they are your friends and mine, are we going to keep lying to them like this? Whatever it is, it's uncomfortable to be deceived. "

He hadn't understood this before, so he had been fooling himself and M into thinking that they might have a happy and fulfilling future. But in the end, it ended up hurting M even more.

He doesn't want to cheat anymore.　　

The word "deceive" made M's whole body stiffen, and the fullness of his frustration seemed to let go at that moment.

In fact, to Kongpob, he was the one who was the biggest liar of all.

And recently, he always had a hunch that he would be unable to hide this lie.

The day when the truth will be revealed and everything is cleared, he really didn't know how Kongpob would hate him.

But there were some roads that once traveled, there was no turning back, even if there was darkness ahead, he had to walk hard to the end. M's eyes quickly grayed, and the indignation on his face evolved into a bitter smile.

"Fine, have it your way. But let me talk to Tew and the others about this, I don't want to be the object of their careful sympathy, it might end better if I speak for myself."

Hearing him finally agree, Kongpob couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, and where else would he care who spoke up about it.　　

He looked at M for a while, but finally managed to speak, "M, you know, we grew up together, I've never treated you as an outsider. I understand that saying things like I'll continue to treat you as my best buddy is a jerk to you, but I really do, and you can still come to me no matter what happens in the future. But if that bothers you..."

Kongpob paused before continuing, "I can stay away from you too."