Ramblings & shit {completed}

19.

Is this ok?
I don't hear anymore.
Is this ok?
I can't feel anymore.
Is this ok?
I don't laugh anymore.
Is this ok?
I can't even crack a half smile.
Is this ok?
It hurts in my heart too much.
Is this ok?
It hurts the thoughts swirling in my head too much.
Is this ok?
My eyes are dull, seemingly lifeless.
Is this ok?
My head is full of the darkness that seems to consume me.
Is this ok?
It won't stop.
Is this ok?
I can't stop it.
Is this ok?
Is it fucked up to ACTUALLY like this feeling?
Is this ok?
To actually prefer feeling sadness, and pain, loss and hurt, anger and anxiety?
Is this ok?
It feels better to feel these things than just nothing.
Is this ok?
But to what extent is this ok?
Is this ok?
To what extent do my thoughts become dangerously insane?
Is this ok?
To what extent, is this ok?
It's not ok.
-Mimi