if winter was a person | jaeyong.

the thirtieth.

<12:30pm>
<present>

It's been weeks now since Jaehyun had laid hands on Taeyong, and it was driving the older insane. For a person to find cheesy stuff disgusting, he was hoping for a miracle to happen that Jaehyun would do something to see each other secretly, even for a while. So he decided to take matters in his own hands.

It was one day before the event, where they all graduate and for the party as their reward for all the hardship that they all went through as senior students. Jaehyun sighs as he looks at the sun, it reminded him of Taeyong.

It was almost as if the sunlight felt like Taeyong's body against him. He waits for time to pass by faster, the sight of Taeil feeding Doyoung with cheesecake makes him want to punch the first guy he sees. The song in his earphones played loudly in ears, distracting him from the thoughts.

Turns out the first guy he saw aside from the two was Taeyong, his eyes didn't have the same cold expressions but had the sad ones. It was puffy and red, as if he was crying for hours. Johnny was behind him and whispered reassurances in his ear.

He watches as the older walked gracefully towards the couple, the was his brown hair shines from the light and his soft, pale skin gleamed. He was breath-taken. His heart beats faster when the moment captured in slow motion with his love-driven eyes matches with the song that suddenly played, Beautiful by Bazzi.

"Doyoung, here's all the final list of materials, some were requested by Mr. Park, if you need me I'll be in the restroom" Taeyong turned around and his eyes captures Jaehyun's.

They both got lost in the cosmos of their eyes, entering the state of which it felt like time stood still, only the peripheral view of their faces clouded their visions.

Words failed to roll out of Jaehyun's mouth.

Taeyong was awoken by the view, he didn't budge and just walked away with giving the younger a longing glance of desperation. The look of desperation to run to his arms and kiss him, even if it means that would be the last time they will get the chance to do so.

Jaehyun pulled his earphones out and punch the wall. Taeil almost dropped his fork when he heard the loud bang. Even if there was no teacher around, Doyoung was still informed about Taeyong banned to have physical and affectionate contact with Jaehyun, and vice versa.

Doyoung wiped his mouth before he pats his boyfriend's head, "Jaehyun, I know you wanted to touch Taeyong but we all know even if I let you, Johnny is always there to witness"

"Johnny can't lie to Taeyong's mom, and once she finds about you with Taeyong, you might as well kiss your future goodbye" Taeil takes a bite of cheesecake.

Jaehyun doesn't know what to respond, he knows what they all said was true. He grabs his phone and walks away to the music room to get his mind off this frustrating situation.

He stood still in front of the piano. The silence in the room was soon replaced by the beautiful notes that Jaehyun played. His fingers having the mind of their own while his mind gets lost from the grand sound of the piano. The music playing was loud enough to be heard outside.

Taeyong walked past the room but traced his steps back when he thought his eyes were playing with him. He thought it was just all from the crying he did, but no, it was really Jaehyun. The same guy who can't even hold figurines gently and grabs basketballs roughly, playing the piano like his fingers were dancing over water.

He grips onto the doorknob, contemplating whether he should just leave or go in and have this moment. His heart yearns to have Jaehyun's arm around his body and his kisses on his lips, but his brain says it was just asking to be shot dead. But then again he'd rather be dead than to not have him at all.