Whats the point of living? (Kiritodobakudeku) (DISCONTINUED)

5

Todorokis POV:

I was discharged from the hospital and was told to be careful when training 'im finally out of there' I felt my phone buzz in my pocket

 <Midoriya changed the group name to Boyfriends>

<1 new message from Boyfriends>

Midoriya- Hey Sho how are you?

Shoto- Im fine I just got discharged from the hospital

Midoriya- Oh cool! Would you like to come over?

Shoto- Sure

Midoriya- See ya soon

Shoto- <3

I started walking to Midoriyas house when I noticed Bakugou and Kirishima were going there to "hey" I call out as I run over to them "oh hey Todoroki you going to Izukus house?" Kirishima asked "yeah" I was a little happier than usual but thats fine. Once we made it to Izukus house I put my bag and shoes by the door and gave him a kiss on the cheek "hello my prince" I say in a charming voice "hello my lord" he kissed my hand and practically dragged me upstairs "so are you feeling better" Bakugou asked "yeah the gave me pills to take every morning and an inhaler just incase I have a panic attack"  I say as I sit down "aww im sorry baby" Kirishima said as he hugged my waist "its fine" I turn around and pecked his lips "oh do you have a shirt I can borrow"I didn't want to sleep in my uniform "uh here it might be a little tight" Midoriya said while handing me a plain white t-shirt "thanks" I stood up and took my blazer and tie off before unbuttoning my shirt "aaahh Shoto dont take your shirt off in here" Midoriya said while blushing "oh i-im sorry" I say my eyes started to water as I left the room and went into the bathroom "my bodys disgusting isnt it" I mumble to myself as I take my shirt off revealing the scars that littered my body "disgusting" I mumble as I put Midoriyas t-shirt on, I could feel tears sliding down my cheeks "im not beautiful" I say

Your ugly

Your fat

Who would love someone like you

I looked in the mirror Midoriya was right the shirt was tight you could practically see my abs and chest, I splashed some water on my face before looking in the mirror once more "disgusting" I say "Todoroki-kun are you ok?" Midoriya asked "uh yeah" I wiped the tears from my face and opened the door "why were you crying?" Midoriyas eyes were filled with worry "nothing" I say "did I make you sad?" Midoriyas voice broke as tears fell from his eyes "no it wasnt you please dont cry" I wiped his tears away and kissed his freckles "I love you Shoto" Midoriya said "I love you to Izuku" I smiled before going back to his room "you look sexy in that shirt" Bakugou said as he wiggled his eyebrows "I agree" Kirishima ran his finger over my abs "hah that tickles" I felt Midoriyas hand run up my back 'my scars shit  "I immediately jumped back "whats wrong?" Bakugou asked "im ticklish" I say "your lying" Kirishima said, my heart felt like it was beating out of my chest "wait you have scars on your arms! Have you cut before!?" Midoriya exclaimed 

Your gross

Shut up

They're only dating you because they pity you 

No 

I quickly grabbed my inhaler from my pocket and took a few deep breaths "yes I have cut before but it was only in middle school" 

Liar

"Babe dont cut if you need anything tell us" Kirishima said as he hugged me "are you gonna tell us why you got scared when Deku ran his hand up your back?" I could tell Bakugou was concerned I just sighed and took my shirt of revealing all of my scars "Oh my god who did that to you!" Kirishima was on the verge of tears, Midoriya was already crying and Bakugou was shocked "my dad done it" I say "HE WHAT?! IM GONNA KILL HIM" Bakugou made mini explosions and gritted his teeth "gross right?" I felt disgusting I dont even want to look at myself "your not disgusting your beautiful" Midoriya cupped my cheeks and kissed the scar on my face "we love and nothings going to change that" I felt tears slide down my cheeks "I love you guys too" 

Your life means nothing

"shut up" tears stated falling faster 

Kill yourself

"Shut up" I said between sobs "is it the voice?" Midoriya asked I just nod "dont listen to it" Kirishima hugged me tighter and kissed my jawline "can we cuddle?" I ask "of course" we all layed down and cuddled eachother, I eventually fell asleep holding onto Kirishimas shirt while Midoriyas arms were wrapped around my waist.