To Catch Fire

Your eyes

Looking around the crowded room full of well-known, but yet so unfamiliar faces, I was suddenly met with the pair of eyes haunting me day and night,
Confident, smirking, challenging and at the same time so sincere, soft, velvet, wrapping around you like a blanket, reaching out to warm the depths of your soul,
Walnut brown with small dark spots reminding me of hot chocolate with caramel..
I stood there dumbfounded, never expecting to see you here after two years of complete silence.
And instantly the memories came flooding back, time spent with our mutual friends, you hugging me on my birthday, telling me about your problems and how there is no escape,
you, you, you..
Completely occupying my mind, again.
You smiled and I guess I smiled back, but that was it, not even a simple "hi" was mumbled.
I came back to my senses only on the street, being far away from this room, people, you..
Cold wind repeatedly slapping me across the face.
Why didn't I approach you?
Why didn't I say anything?
Why do I blame myself and not you for being so oblivious?!
Or maybe.. maybe you understand everything and know that no matter how hard I try to picture the way you looked that day,
I remember only
your eyes(?).