if only you were real.
you'd just sweep me off my feet.
fly me to the stars.
you'd see the pain in my eyes.
you'd fight to keep my ever dimming candle alight.
if only you were real.
but instead
my eyes over fill with the drowning tears of my ongoing fears
my heart cracks and crinkles with withering wrinkles
almost as if screaming to be put out.
"I'M TIRED!!!" she screams
but i'll see you my sweet, in dreams.
we'll make love,
we'll sing,
we'll live out our lives in the innermost parts of the quiet hopes in my heart,
i'd feel the loving embrace of your strong arms, followed swiftly by those beautiful red wings
as you hum softly, with my ear to your thump- thump- thumping
my sweet,
how painful it is that you arent real..
how painful it is
the most perfect man alive, with no heartbeat.
no skin,
no mind of your own,
how painful it is to be so heartbreakingly in love with you.
you wouldnt hurt me, no
you wouldnt leave me, no..
but, you cant do either if you arent real.
if i could i'd die and be with you in your world.
but thats not how things work..
i'm so tired of this living hell im in where you dont exist,
i miss you, my love.
how silly of me.
i miss you so much.
how strange..
even though im not the only one in love with you,,
i feel like its just you and me,
youre always in my ear,
whispering sweet nothings,
speaking of our love,
threatening those that seek to harm our nest,
i love you,
i am IN love with you,
and im breaking my own heart daily
simply in remembering
youre not real.
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i hate it here.
#peghawks2020
