324 Views [Michael Clifford]

i miss you

-1 Month Later-

The entire time we're going through sound-check, I can't keep my mind off of Sophie. If I managed to convince myself last month that I didn't like her, I'm done trying to convince myself now. I 100% have a full blown school-boy crush on a girl that I only know from the internet.

I've yet to find her social media, even though I've probably posted 10 or more pictures of her account on Instagram and Twitter in the past month, always ending up with no luck.

~Flashback~

Another notification comes from Instagram, a direct message. I'm always quick to open them, constantly thinking it could be some clue to finding Sophie, but most of them aren't. It's usually my fans telling me how great they think I am or that they love the music all of us make.

I guess opening all of them allows more interaction with the fans, since I always reply nowadays (even if I have to go to Google translate to do so).

I'm quick to open the DM to see that the picture is one from a couple weeks ago when the boys and I were on stage opening for One Direction. I smile at the memory, and at how great the crowd was, before checking the caption of the direct message.

"I found sophie! Her Instagram is @sophieaax !"

I type a quick thanks in reply and head to the search section of the app and type in the username, feeling the excitement just bubbling inside my stomach. The butterflies are flying against my belly, making the organ do cartwheels underneath my skin at the fact that this may actually be her. Of course, this isn't anything new, this happens every time someone claims to have found her, and then once it's not her, I go into a funk of sadness and tears, thinking I'll never find her. The only thing that gets me almost back to normal is, ironically, her.

Watching her videos always brings a smile to my face, just being able to see how much passion she puts into the music.

I've known since the day I realized that this wasn't some petty crush I had on this girl, that I was falling head over heels for her, that I would never be normal again.

I click on the profile and immediately my stomach drops at the sight of the blonde haired, green-eyed girl, whose profile was supposed to be Sophie's. I let the girl who told me about the profile know that she made a mistake and that wasn't my Sophie, but that there were no hard feelings.

I pull Daniel into my chest and squeeze him tight, letting out all of my anger and frustrations on his soft fur before spending the rest of the day with red eyes and watching Sophie's YouTube videos.

~End Flashback~

I look out at the amphitheater we're opening for tonight, thinking of how last year we were here opening for One Direction, but this time we are the main act. It's crazy how much life can change in a year. I wonder if Sophie will be with me during our next tour.

A blush rises to my cheeks just thinking about her and I can't stop myself from wondering how her full lips feel would against mine, and how it would feel to be smushed up against her in the small bunk on the bus. I wouldn't mind though, I would want to be next to her every second if I could. I can hear her voice in my head, distracting me from playing the chords on my guitar.

"Michael! What's going on with you? You're totally out of it today. Is it that Sophie chick again?" Luke yells at me from his spot center stage.

I look down at my shoes, smiling, and thinking of her bright brown eyes.

"Yeah, I just can't get her out of my head." I confess, shamelessly.

"Well, get your head in the game, we've got a show tonight! You can think about her after the sound-check." Luke, once again yells at me and turns back to his microphone. "Okay, from the top!"