Don't worry My Son Mommy Will Take The Pain Away ( Complete ) [Editing]

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Today I was going to the reluctant as I am I brought along Abigail she got off punishment because my father felt guilty and she loves to use the sympathy card my mother couldn't I she said she was busy but every body knows what those two are up to since it's father day off when I saw the empress I smiled and bow properly so did Abigail we thought her a few manners in approaching royalty I noticed the empress seemed tired her usually bright silver gray eyes had small dark circles it's barely seen but I noticed maybe it's because she's been like a mother and an adviser to me even before my parents died in my past life I felt in death to her but she couldn't help me because of Nathaniel he had cut off all ties she got so tired of his behavior and play the mother card on him she caught a stroke
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"Child I'm sorry I knew my child didn't like the way I do things are the fact that I set up someone for him but I never thought he'd be so cruel I wish I could see Alexander grow his only two so he would not remember me or that we were close I'm sorry vivian I know you would be a better mother than I ever was"

Her tight grip loosen as her hand falls from mine I drop my head on the bed

"No please you can't I'll be alone if you die *hic*hic* I love you God mother"

I rub my head on the sheets then Nathaniel came in his face was cold not a single tear nothing did he really not care no as an emperor he can't be subjugated to emotions he must always remain calm and composed so must the empress
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"Your majesty are you tired we could come another time"

"No I'm fine I was looking forward to your visit this must be your sister?"

She look at Abigail from head to toe but she was indifferent towards her Abigail bow once more she nod and turned to me she held my elbow as she guides the way the empress didn't hate Abigail nor did she like her atlease that's how she sees her now but when she became Nathaniel's concubine it infuriated her she was always by my side through thick and thin but still I must prevent the future to come for all of us sake so I will not desire love nor to be his wife

"Is something on your mind?"

"I'm just thinking of how kind you are your majesty"

"Please call me God mother"

I smiled as we walk through the halls I ended up meeting Nathaniel we all stop he looked at me for a while it must be my imagination cause I could see a worried look in his eyes then I noticed Abigail her face was flustered her eyes was sparkling I must admit I am a little jealous but I can no longer give in to jealousy after all his heart is untamed and I will only suffer in the future to come so I can no longer drown myself in careless illusions I bow to him he seems taken back I drag my sleeve longer I didn't know why but I felt uneasy and fixated with it plus the uneasy feeling that he might see it cause his eyes are keen and he is kind of possessive I remember if anything didn't fix his desire he would get rid of it  he slightly open his mouth like he wanted to say something but close it then the same stern and cold look came on his face a look I was use to

"Lady vivian it's nice to meet you again?"

"Ah what......oh I mean it's a pleasure y..your highness" I said bowing

"No need mother I need to have a private discussion with you after this"

"Yes but why don't you join us for tea?" She smile politely

He seemed taken back he bit his bottom lip

"That would be delightful but I must attend to an urgent matter maybe next time"

He walked away without acknowledging Abigail's existence which was surprising since he was not one to ignore people and the empress didn't even bother to show him

"Ah ..it's very nice to meet you your highness"

She said innocently if I didn't know that personality of hers I would mistaken her for an angel suddenly I heard a *Tsk* who did that came from... the empress?.. the guards?... it couldn't could it I look at the empress then to him

"......hello"

He left without making any further conversations what was that did he always act like that towards her or could it be that something's changed about him