circle of insanity

dead but alive

(doctor p.o.v)

logbook

7/12/18

Patient Yamada seems broken now that he learnt he is the only person left in his family,he doesn't wish to eat and he refuses to drink either at this point we just pump the nutrients and the water right into his body, seriously this kid needs to suck it up people die get over it.

7/19/18

Patient Yamada broke the machine we were using to pump the nutrients and water into his body a say we just let him starve himself to death he obviously isn't going to stop trying to die 

7/28/18

Patient Yamada does not move except to say hana or eat and drink he seems to be absolutely broken and we stopped medicating him he's already docile all the time

8/3/18

Patient Yamada finally started moving around and he started drawing what he drew was irregular though, birds on the arms of a dead body on a cross ,a sword impaled in a coffin a female body slumped in a chair in what looks like a cellar, it's sickening, doctor noir had to take his papers away to stop from seeing it

8/16/18

Patient Yamada finally broke out of his stupor and threw away all his drawings saying "oh god no what are these" and tearing them all down disgusted by his own works.

(Hikari's p.o.v)

"Oh god no what are these monstrosities" I say while looking at all the horrifying drawings, a sword stabbing inside a coffin, a robin eating somebody's heart , a cherub shooting a man to death, all horrifying me.

I then start panicking and freaking out then i feel a syringe but it's a different medicine not meloas simply because it's not yellow its red my head starts feeling fuzzy and i go to a greyscale world "weird everything here's greyscale that's kind of cool but kind of irregular, oh well" i start walking around the place i'm at it seems to be a taylorian house with 3 bedrooms one seems to be for an adult and the others for kids the whole area seems to brighten up immediately after he goes into one of the rooms for a kid hikari then noticed "this is my old house the taylorian hana and I lived here all our lives I never knew my or hana's dad neither did hana after all she was only 1 at the time and he left before she was 2 I started to think deeply wondering why i could

never exactly remember my mother's face since in all my delusions i never saw her face but instead a shadow for some reason then i figured it out my mom never wanted to show her face to me i remember learning that the person who kidnapped me and hana was the old abusive step father we both gained he hated all of us and he was only here to try to get our house but when they got a divorce we won and gotten everything and had the right to sue him for some false claims of us abusing him

I hate him hate,hate,hate,hate

(extreme emotion detected,area collapsing)

I started tearing the whole room to oblivion destroying its beauty for the sake of my own rage i tear down everything i then start to cry thinking about my whole family dead staring at me from the other side of a road that i can not pass but behind me is that dastardly son of a gun step dad i keep running but he's faster i keep trying to escape but i can't, then i wake up drenched in sweat,tears stained on my face i don't entirely know why but i feel a cold shiver down my spine immediately i then realized this world is also grayscale so i just stay in a crouched position head against my knees trying not to break down and start a rampage. "i don't wanna break not again not anymore"