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Chapter 21 - Natsu's Depression

natsu's pov 

Day 1 

after Cobra said he was selling the house I locked myself in the bedroom like a 13 year old that just started pubity but Im just so angry that i can't even look at anyone. i don't even think i can look at lucy or my babies, i don't want them to be around me at a time like this. 

"natsu, baby please open the door, i just want to see if your okay" she said and i walked by the door and i could hear her crying over the other side "just let me know your okay?" she asked and i just knocked three times and she gasped with relief "i love you natsu, you know that right. if you need to talk I'm here for you" all i could do was cry because i didn't want her blaming herself. i just looked around the empty cold walls around my room and just cried. 

she left eventually and i just looked out my window and saw Cobra and Gajeel arguing outside about the house. and i just chose to ignore it. "why do you think he's the way he is cobra, he does have a point, you can't run away and decide to sell a house that had all of us living in it for years. he has every right to lash out, this is his home, our home don't you understand that" i wanted to shout and scream from the window and back gajeel up but i just didn't have the energy. 

as the hours past i just lay staring at the ceiling hoping that my soul would leave my body so i could go and find mama and pops but i just couldn't. 

lucy's pov 

i worried about natsu, Gajeel let me stay in his room with the twins whilst he stayed over at levys due to him and Erick fighting about the house. as i was going to bed i noticed the door still locked and i just prayed Natsu was okay. i made sure that Nashi and Layla were safe laying on the bed and i just stayed up looking at them cooing. 

"i know, daddy will be okay. he'll just be sad for a few days, i want you two to know that he loves you, he just misses his mummy and daddy. we need to give him some space" i cried which then made the babies cry but sting and rogue and wendy made sure that they were calm so that i could be able to sleep. 

Day 2 

Natsu's pov

i woke up and usually should be hungry around now but i just don't feel anything. there was a gap under the door and i saw lucy's hand slide a plate under the door and it sort of made me smile. i walked over to the plate with a smile but when i saw my favourite breakfast i felt a frown curve down on my face i sighed with depression and i just took a bite of toast and already felt full. i then slid the plate under the door and kept looking around the bedroom, everytime i looked around it, it didn't feel right. it felt so empty, so bleak. 

i could hear arguing again from downstairs this time wendy found out which isn't a great thing as she has barely lived in this house and finally had a place to stay perminemntly from the other foster homes she was in the past. i couldn't handle it so i decided to open my door and go downstairs. 

when i walked to the living room everyone was arguing and being loud until they saw me and stopped. i held the plate in my hands and just put it in the kitchen ignoring everyone's presence and stared at cobra. "have you changed you remind yet?" i asked and he just shook his head crossing my arms. "then you are no longer my brother" 

i walked out of the room and headed down to the basement and grabbed my sketchbook and paints. which were dashed and forgotten and went back upstairs to lock me in the bedroom. 

Lucy's pov 

it's been another whole day, well he came downstairs once but i was asleep due to being up all night worrying about him and dealing with the twins crying. i knocked on the bedroom door wanting to communicate with him again. "baby, you there?" i asked and it was sielnt until i heard things being moved and falling and crashing. "natsu!?" i panicked and knocked on the door three times and still nothing.