why. || tsukiyama

Confession - Updated

I panicked a little but minutes later I got a text back,
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Hey Yams, he's okay just to lyk!! I'm with him right now, he should be fine by tomorrow!! Sorry to worry you.
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no, your fine!! Don't apologize:) just happy to hear that he's okay. See ya at school! <3
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// Time skip, they're in HS.

Yamaguchi's Perspective
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"Tsukki!" I yelled while running to Tsukki. New school year, no more middle school.. Eh, not really a big deal. It's just High School.

"Yams! Hey!" Tsukki replied with a smile on his face. He's cute, I thought I'd move on from him to some other hot guy but I only have eyes for Tsukki, for years.

"So.. Do you wanna walk to school together? As friends of course!" I asked and smiled. I really love Tsukki, his smile is always so nice.. although he doesn't really use it much.

"Oh, sorry Yams, I'm walking with my friend.. Unless you wanna join us?" Tsukki offered, of course I want to accept even if we're with someone else. I love Tsukki, I'd do anything for him but I would rather let him walk with his friend like he has planned.

"Sorry, I'll pass. Thanks for the offer though!" I said but, disappointed of saying it.

Tsukki is always with his friend and he barely has time for me, his childhood best friend, or so his other best friend. Childish, I know.

I turn around and start walking to school. I'm thinking of telling Tsukki that I like him but I don't think he'll feel the same way.

"YAMSSSS! HEY!" I heard, Bokuto was yelling for me. I guess I won't be walking to school alone.

"Hey." I reply.

"Have you told Tsukki yet? You totally should!" Bokuto put his arm around me and asked. I don't know, I want to. Maybe I will.

"Oh, um I don't know. Maybe, but i'm scared." I replied. I looked at Tsukki walking with his friends, he's so pretty.

"Dont be!! You got this." Bo replied. Do I? I might chicken out even just trying to get the words out of my damn mouth, what if i jumble them up?

We finally made it to school and Bo went to Akaashi and they kissed, then went to class. I opened my locker and a note came out, it was from Tsukki?

"Hey yams, i'm sorry for being a jerk from not letting you walk with me to school. - ILY (no homo haha), tsukki."

He said he loves me! He said no homo, though.. does he not love me in more then a friend way?.. I love him like that.. maybe hes hiding it haha..

or maybe not.

Love you too tsukki. I closed my locker and also held onto the note. I saw Tsukki and went up to him.

"Tsukki?" I went up to him and said, I'm nervous.

"Yeah, Yams?, what's up?" He looked at me and I looked into his gorgeous, pretty pretty eyes. Sometimes I get lost in them.

"Ummm.." He was alone. It was just me and him, which was perfect. I am so nervous he's gonna say no, I hope he says yes but I'm not sure..

"So.. I- want to ask you something after school." I couldnt do it now, it was too risky and I wanted to wait, I didn't want to get rejected and heartbroken inside school, right now.

"Oh, alright! Did u get the note I gave to you?" I looked into his eyes again and paused for a moment. How is he so pretty, he's so hot.

"..OH, yeah I did. You werent being a jerk, you just cared for your friend, and I love you too. I have to go, bye Tsukkii!"

"Oh ok, bye Yama, love ya!" He said he loves me again. But.. he didnt say no homo? Maybe he's used to not saying no homo? I don't know, I said it back and went to class.

I sighed, I'm so nervous to ask him, he's cute and all but what if I get rejected and break down.

I shouldn't think negatively, but what if he rejects me? If that happened, I wouldn't have a meaning for breathing air.

I snuck my phone into class so I put my headphones in where my teacher cant see them. I mumbled really quietly so no one can hear,

"In a minute, Imma need a, sentimental man or women to pump
me up"

// After class — Study hall

Finally, study hall. Bo and Akaashi were in the same class as me.

"Soo, Yams is gonna confess his love to the saltshaker, Tsukishima~" Bo said.

"S-shut up!" I blushed and looked away, not away exactly, I looked at Tsuki.

"He's blushing, he's blushing!" Bo teased. I was blushing though.

"I'm seriously gonna kill you Bo!" I said.
"Calm down boy-" Bo said. We all laughed and I pushed Akaashi and Bokuto together to kiss, they started making out.. bad idea.

"Ok ok, you can stop now, thats enough-"

"Haha, okay okay sorry I cant help it I love Akaashi so much!" Bo said while blushing and smiling.

"So cute!"

"Awwh. I love you more, Bokuto~" Akaashi kissed Bo on the cheek and I just sat there lookin like a mega third fucking wheel, thats most definitely gonna get rejected by a really hot guy., If I ever get the balls to confess..

I grabbed some homework for today and I started and finished it. I still had a lot more though. I look behind me and see Bokuto and Akaashi making out again, I didn't bother them, I kept doing my homework.

Study hall ended and I went to health. The most boring class ever. I then had to use the bathroom. I raised my hand and asked.

The teacher said yes and I went to the boys bathroom, but I really didnt need to go, I just wanted to get out of class. I left the bathroom a minute later and I ran into Tsukki.

"Oh hey Tsukki! Why aren't you in class?" I asked.
"I could ask you the same thing." He answered

"Ok ok, health is boring so I wanted to get out of it for a bit." I said.

"Alright, someone was annoying me so I left before I strangled the bitch." Wonder who? I'll ask.
"Who was annoying you?" I asked.

"Oh, this orange haired 5'3" ass. He's on the volleyball team, his name is Shoyo Hinata."
"Ohh him, I've seen him, he's in two of my classes."
"Oh okay, the bells gonna ring we should get to our classes. Bye Yams."

"Okay, bye!" I watched him walk to his class then went back to mine and silently started obsessing over Tsukki. I love him so much. He's soo cute, hot, beautiful, and hot, and hot again, and you get it. I just want him to be mine so badly.

// after class

I walked up to Tsukki and asked if we could walk home together so I can tell him that I like him.

My face lit up when he said "sure".

"Hey Tsukki, I have to uhh tell you something." I said nervously.

"Okay, shoot." Tsukki said.

"I-I.. I like you.. I have a crush on you!" I confessed, my heart was pounding like nuts and it was so hard to simply just breathe.

".."

"Do you like me?"

".."

"Do you?.."

UPDATED 2022 — I just realized I never actually said Akaashi Is okay before LMAO, I added that part in though so it's not confusing. I made this make a little more sense? It was all over the place, grammar mistakes, weird format, (etc..) Thanks for all the love on this story 💗