DESSTINEE LONG
looks can be deceiving .
"yall made it to them couple goals pages" chanel said as we walked down the hall .
nobody knows what happens behind the scenes .
"oh" i said .
i just thought of the memory last night...
"stop playing with me amour" syncere yelled at me while sitting on his bed .
"im not even doing nothing syncere" i said while looking in the mirror .
"u not going to that fucking party" he said .
"why ? i got dressed and everything" i said .
"my friends said that u b fucking with niggas when u get out and party" he said .
"i dont go time for this syncere" i said walking to the door .
he snatched me up by my neck and said "u not finna go nowhere" .
i dig my fingernails in his hand to make him let go but that made his grip tighter .
"its me and u forever desstinee , uk that" he said .
"syncere- le- let me go" i said .
he let me go throwing me to the ground and said "if u catch with another nigga , ima beat yo ass" .
this been happening every since , he been hanging out with the wrong crowd .
syncere was a football player . he got kicked off the team bc they did a drug test and he failed so now his anger comes from that . he started taking pills , drinking , smoking , and hanging out with the wrong crowd .
i tried to talk to him ab that but he just ignores me or beats me and says "mind your damn business" .
"ima see u later" i said to chanel .
me and chanel go way back . ever since 1st grade , we became friends and now look we juniors and still friends .
i went into my classroom and sat down and got on my phone waiting for class to start .
LOML ❤️
what u tryna do after school?
me
ion know
LOML ❤️
u tryna make some babies 👶🏽 ?
i sighed while looking at the message .
eventually i got pregnant , i decided to keep it bc i want something of my own . but it was a night that changed it all ...
"i cant wait to meet you , my lil baby" i said rubbing and looking down at my 3 month belly .
"who tf is dc ?" syncere said bursting into my room .
"why u on my phone ?" i said looking at him .
"so u tryna hide shit from me ?" he said walking up close to me .
"no syncere" i said .
"then who tf is dc ?" he yelled .
"idk" i said getting up .
he pushed me on the floor and started sending punches to me and said "since u dont know" .
he kicked me in my stomach making me feel a sharp pain and said "now , u dont know if still have a baby" .
i felt something leaking from my private part and he yelled "oh shit" .
he picked me up in bridal style and i looked down and see a puddle of blood on the carpet .
i just cried in his arms as he carried me .
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"sorry ma'am u had an miscarriage" the nurse said then leaving the room .
syncere came in and i didn't want to see his face so i looked up at the ceiling .
"im sorry desstinee" he said .
i just cried and he rubbed my shoulder .
i sniffled and wiped my tears .
i didnt realized i was crying .
i picked up my phone and continued texting him .
me
nah lets just chill
LOML ❤️
mhm alright
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i was looking in the mirror , examining my scars .
some of them healed , some of them are fading away .
i just wishing and hoping that all this stuff will go away .
i pray that syncere changes but , if he doesn't i pray i get someone else who loves me .
