Her death

July 17, 2003

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"Come here Emma! The view is gorgeous!" The voice squeaks in excitement and look up to see the brunette standing on the dock, a chuckle leaves my lips as i feel her hand tug on mine "see, it's beautiful" she points at the sunset but all I'm paying attention to is those white pearls shining through her beautiful smile .

"How about we take a picture" I suggest with a smile and watch her head nod in excitement, I pull my camera out and smile as it flashes , we took a few before shoving my phone back in my pocket and grabbing her soft hand. "You're so beautiful" I whisper and see her brown eyes flick towards me , the reflecting of the water shines through them

"Thank you, so are you" her elbow nudges me and we continue walking, I see her other hand run across the metal fence leading to a familiar building it was supposedly a fancy restaurant but I've never been there before just saw it on my casual walks.

" do you know this place?" I asked curiously as she was leading me to the door

"Well it looks like a restaurant" she jokes making my eyes roll she always has a sense of humor. But I loved it.

As we walked in and the lights were shining and everyone was talking, it was the type of restaurant where you know even the smallest thing will be the most expensive but I didn't care about money at this point as long as she was happy. I knew she wouldn't consider this a date, after all we're not 'dating'. Why? Well I had told her a while ago that I wasn't ready to be with anyone and even though I like the idea of it I couldn't do it not after what I've been through, well she was excepting of course like she always is, but things have changed and my feelings have only grown, I want a future with her I really do but I can't open up and definitely can't express my feelings, even to her

It wasn't long before the waiter showed up with our menu which is weird because you would think that in a place like this with probably over 70 people it would take longer for them to show up, but I'm guessing they have a lot of workers tonight. We pull out our menus and look at the options everything was fancy and most of all expensive. After scanning the menu I finally found an option I was particularly happy about, pesto pasta.

"So what would you like?" I look over at the brunette who I just set her menu down as well, she looks up at me and hums

"I like the salad" she says . I was expecting that answer, ever since we met she made sure I knew that she loves salad "what about for you?" She then asks

After sharing our orders to each other the waiter comes back with waters and we give him our order as well as ask for their fanciest wine, We wait nearly 30 more minutes for our other part of the meal and once he arrives with it my mouth was already drooling, and my stomach rumbling, The wait had me absolutely hungry.

" finally" she lets out a laugh and we both start eating, my pasta tasted really good it was filled with flavor and very fulfilling

"Would you like to try some?" I offer and push the bowl to her, she smiles and nods taking the fork, a moan slips out of her mouth after tasting it

"It's soo good" she says, helping herself to another bite which made me laugh lightly , even her eating made me get butterflies, god this woman is everything

"I'm glad , even better than your salad?" I question with a smile and she nods up and down aggressively

"Yes, but I'm officially full" she states and I nod leaning back and holding my stomach

"Me too, where after this though?" I hum and tap my foot on the marble ground

"Back to your house ? We can eat some ice cream and watch a movie?" Her lips curve into a big smile as they give us the Check and she grabs my hand

As soon as I knew it we were outside the GPS pulled up on my phone and we were waiting for an Uber, I don't have my own car yet but I'm hoping soon I will. I could tell the breeze was getting to her and she was a bit chilly by the way her arms were holding her chest. I took the jacket off of my shoulders and put it around hers, earning a small blush that she tried to hide behind that dark hair.

The Uber was green, regina's favorite color. For me it's weird to see a green car, I'm always used to seeing those silver, black and white ones. The seats were leather and comfortable but my favorite part was the open celling, giving us a nice breeze during the drive home.

It was all dark in the house so I flipped on a few switches and kicked my shoes off. I see regina look over at me and bite her lip "come on let's get that ice cream" she mumbles and walks to the kitchen, I follow behind and watch her pull my favorite flavor out, scooping them into different bowls and handing one to me

"Mm thank you love" I mumble but immediately regret the name , I didn't call her that stuff usually, my cheeks turn a deep red but they're stopped by her hands cupping both softly

"Hey it's okay , let's go sit" she says softly, making all my embarrassment go away as we walk to the couch. she cuddles close to me and grabs my hand "can I see the picture we took?" She suggests and I nod, pulling out my phone and showing her it