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when a boy first says he loves you: part one
when a boy tells you he loves you, it'll be the first time your hearing this. it is late and he isn't even there to tell you this in person but instead from a car ride home from a bar in chicago. he is there on business. and of course you will smile. because he sounds like he means it. you believe him.
because a boy has never handed those words to you like crush blackberries in the palm of his hand firm, young, full. waiting to taste sweet with you. his arms; creeping vines begging to touch the sun in your face saying "here, take everything i have ever touched to be closer to you."
he will remember the time you told him you felt safe in his mouth, and he will never grow hungry. just distant. when a boy tells you he loves you, you will hear music, the voice of past lovers dancing up your throat, your stomach after hours cabaret still waiting on the last call. that was when you learnt that when a boy says i love you. he means I'm getting ready to be inconsistent with you now.
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sun in my mouth | poetry √
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