Survivor's remorse (Book 3)

Cut the cameras

Chapter 5

Eleanor Aluchulumanco Kwayi

I don't think I have experienced love because when I held Eleanor for the first time I felt as if everything wrong with the world suddenly didn't matter. She looked at me and I knew that I was in love, she could do no wrong in my eyes. Her small hands touched my face and I fell in love a thousand times again. She yawned and I thought that was the most beautiful thing next to Jesus turning water into wine. Qhama held her and he had such a huge smile on his face. I think Eleanor can forget about dating, her father was never going to let her out of his sight.
" She is beautiful"
I think we can both agree on that. When we took her home, the reality sinked in when the princess kept us up all night. Qhama was more than happy to wake up for her because he was used to the sleepless nights yet on day 3 he would knock on my door then go back to sleep. The first month went by and we survived it, the second we were professionals and on the third month we could anticipate her drama. On the fourth month she was no longer dramatic just plain out clingy. You know when your baby makes so much noise and you are ashamed of all the stares?. Not Qhama, baby Eleanor screaming in public made Qhama smile.
" I feel like she is not ready to meet everyone"
Today we were letting our family see her. The only people who have seen her were Hlalumi and my grandfather and his wife.
Qhama" We can cancel this"
" You did that with the baby shower so I think they'd be expecting it from you"
We both laughed, I quickly went to change while he dressed his daughter. I wore floral short sleeve wrap dress and open back peep toe boots, quickly did my make up, it's been a while since I looked like my normal self. I grabbed a jacket because it might get cold later.
"Are you ready?"
He looked at me for a while then smiled
Qhama" Yea, everything is packed. Your pumping gear?"
I laughed, I told him;
"It's in my bag. I am prepared"

Qhama organized this whole thing, I was just a guest. The parking lot was filled with cars.
Me" Who is here?"
Qhama" Everyone"
"Elle is the first grand child. Obviously everyone came out for her"
Me" Everyone?"
Qhama" EVERYONE"
He wasn't lying. When we went inside everyone was there. Aunt Sange was the first one to take her.
Sange" To think I thought you were gay"
She said to Qhama.
Khanya" I'm your Guncle, if you need LGBTQ advice wena Elle, your uncle is here"
He looked at me and then to Qhama.
" Hay jonga! When you picked a wife wavuka kulelwe, waqonda uzoyo thetha kwi yadi ye enemy. Hahahaha you always make me proud"
We were laughing, Uncle Viwe and Andrew came to take Elle away. She wasn't crying, she was just enjoying the attention.
Qhama" Would you like a drink?"
Me" Cranberry juice if they have"
"Or just sparkling water"
I spotted my siblings, I walked over to them.
Xavier" Hey, we will come over tomorrow with Eleanor's gifts"
" You don't even have to cook, we just want to spend time together"
Connor" Cook please"
" Mom told us what happened"
Me" Really? You want to discuss that here?"
Connor" You threw her out of your home. So I curious, is she allowed to see Eleanor?"
Me" Our problems have nothing to do with Elle. She is 'allowed' to see her granddaughter if she wants to. I will not stop her"
Xavier" Will you apologize to her?"
Me" Okay. If you'll insert yourselves in this then tell me. Because you've clearly taken her side"
" I'll cook tomorrow. You can all arrive after 1 p.m."
Connor" Don't spit on the food"
I laughed
Me" You're an idiot"
" I need to go pump"

Everyone seemed to be having a good time, Qhama excused himself because he had to go drop off his grandparents (Yanga's parents) at the old age home.
Hlalumi" You look tired"
Me" I am about to pass out. Qhama is back at work and it's just us at night. I can feel the difference"
Hlalumi" See why I haven't visited?"
I laughed at her.
Me" How's Varsity?"
Hlalumi" It's been crazy, but I am enjoying it"
" It's a great distraction"
I knew what she meant.
Me" You know we are here for you right?"
Hlalumi"I know but I think Qhama needs a break from looking after me. I have her journals, through those I feel like I still have them with me"
"I am okay"
Me" Grief is strange. When you think you've picked yourself up, then the triggers come unexpectedly. Just know you don't have to deal with those moments alone"
She gave me a hug.
" I'm happy that you are here"
She said. We carried on speaking until Nathi came to join us.
Nathi" Hope I'm not interrupting"
Hlalumi" You are"
He giggled, and she rolled her eyes.
Nathi" I have to go, we should do something before I head back to Jo'burg"
Me" Wait, you moved?"
Nathi" Yea, needed a fresh start and all that other philosophical crap. We'll catch up"
" I hope you like your push present, I suggested it"
Hlalumi" I'm sure it was supposed to be a surprise smart mouth"
"How are you a doctor kodwa uthetha gqithi?"
I don't know if I was imagining it but the sexual tension was just too much to ignore.
Me" Excuse. I need to go see if my husband is back"

Qhama asked everyone for their attention and the room was quiet.
" Claire and I probably surprised everyone..."

"Sana! Most surprises don't include a pregnancy and a short gun wedding"
Khanya shouted and everyone was laughing, Qhama and I laughed too.
Qhama.

Qhama" As I was saying; Hahaha I would like to thank my wife for being my rock while I've been studying and working none stop during her pregnancy. I know I was an ass, but you handled that with grace. We will go on our honeymoon I promise but right now, I think you should see your push present. This is to thank you for being the perfect wife and an amazing mother"
He gave a small velvet box and I was shocked when I saw it.
"It's outside, let's go see it"
We all went outside and there white Range Rover Evoque.
Me" Thank you!"
I gave him a hug and he whispered in my ear
"I think we've convinced everyone that we are happy"

Sigh