illusion [ Sahyo ]

Broken

Jihyo's POV:

Today was a day that I have been dreading for months; Chaeyoung and Mina's wedding. I have however agreed to be her maid of honor, being her best friend and all I guess I kind of have to.

It's my job even though I'm totally opposed to the whole thing and just the idea of marriage in general. I also have generously paid for their honeymoon to Hawaii, that was my wedding gift to them. 

I can't believe my best friend has joined the dark side. I will definitely miss her. Married life is no fun. It's almost like when someone gets married, they completely forget about their friends.

I won't let her do that though, I don't give a fuck. She's still going to be my club buddy. She's my best friend and that will never change, even if she is doing something that is totally against everything I believe in.

I get up and shower before getting into this ugly ass blue dress that Mina picked out for all the bridesmaids.

I don't understand why Mina had to stick to the tradition that most weddings have of choosing horrible bridesmaids dresses.

Like, come on really? She should have let me pick them out. Although I doubt any of my choices would have been "appropriate".

Of course I still look amazing in the dress. Blue isn't really my color, or even a color I really like. I look good in any color though.

After my hair and makeup are done, I put my shoes on. It was hard to find shoes to go with this hideous dress, but I found some.

Mina is lucky she's my best friend. Weddings just make me want to throw up.

Mina told me Sana is going to be attending, which is going to be quite awkward.

I haven't seen or talked to her since running into her at Illusion. I feel pathetic for crying in front of her, I just couldn't control myself. Seeing her with that girl Tzuyu... It just devastated me as much as I hate to admit it.

I'm jealous, which again is something that goes against my values and morals. I could honestly care less though, I'm fucking jealous. Seeing her hands all over Sana like that, it just... It hurt.

I've never denied the fact that I care about Sana. I do, very much. More than I ever wanted to. She was supposed to just be another girl I slept with, but she turned into something more.

She turned into someone that means the world to me.

It's so hard to be without her honestly. It's hard not to beg for her to come back. I don't want to feel like this, it's pathetic. I just want her to be happy. I need for her to be happy, because her happiness means so much to me. She deserves it more then anyone.

Chaeyoung and Mina are actually having a church wedding, which makes the situation even worse. Like them getting married wasn't bad enough already.

I'm actually surprised they even found a church that will marry gays. I guess people are becoming more and more accepting, which isn't a bad thing.

Marriage and churches are just two things I cannot stand, so this should definitely be a fun day. 

When I arrive at the church, it's already crowded. Mina  isn't a subtle person, when she does things, she likes to do them big.

After I park, I make my way to the bride's room that Mina is getting ready in.

"Wow, you look hot." I greet Mina, examining her in her dress. "I told you that one was a good choice." 

"Thanks. You look good too Hyo." She smiles at me as someone does her hair. 

"I know. I always look good." I smirk.