✔️Saviour - Park Seonghwa x Reader (ATEEZ)

Chapter 19

Wooyoung, San and Yeosang decided to stay for a movie day too after everything that had gone off. Y/N was up for the idea of them all staying to watch movies. Seonghwa on the other hand wasn't. He wanted to spend a day of just him and y/n so he could get to know her more. However, at the same time he was scared to get too close to y/n. He was scared that y/n would leave him one day. It hurt him enough when he lost Nari and he never wanted to go through that pain again.

Seonghwa looked over to y/n who was getting squished by Wooyoung. Seonghwa frowned at the two but nobody realised as they were too interested in the film. Wooyoung hadn't let go of y/n since he entered the house. He refused. Wooyoung was terrified at the thought of anything happening to y/n and wanted to be with her as much as he could so he could protect her.

Yeosang had also noticed Wooyoung clinging to y/n throughout the whole movie. He smiled at the fact that Wooyoung cared so much about her as he never got close to any girls since Nari. Well other than to sleep with them but y/n was different to those girls.

San on the other hand, was too interested in the movie to think about Wooyoung's behaviour towards y/n today. He obviously saw the two snuggled up but didn't really think much of it.

Y/N's POV
We decided to watch 'Halloween Town'. It was my favourite movie as a child and I begged the boys to watch it. Luckily they gave in quite easy so I didn't have to do too much other than pout to persuade them. Wooyoung held me the whole way through the movie, refusing to let go. I don't know why though. It isn't like it was a scary movie.

The movie had finished and I needed the toilet so I pulled myself out of Wooyoung's grip. When he pouted and complained, I told him how I needed to go to the bathroom.

"I will be back after I have been to the toilet." Wooyoung happily let go.

"Hurry back y/n!" Wooyoung grinned.

What is wrong with him today?

I went and did my business in the bathroom then went back downstairs. As I came towards the stairs, San came over.

"Can I talk to you about something?" San sounded concerned so I nodded and we went to the spare bedroom I was supposed to stay in.

"Are you ok y/n? Like, really ok? I'm worried about you and so are the others. Wooyoung almost had a full on panic attack at lunch because you didn't turn up to your lessons. How come he was so worried about you? Did something happen?" San rushed through his words but slowed down. "I'm sorry for babbling on and you don't have to tell me if you don't want to but always know that I will be there for you if you need anyone."

Wooyoung had a panic attack because of me?

Why though?

"Wooyoung had a panic attack? Because of me? Why? I only missed a lesson." I questioned confused.

San nodded his head. "He was scared for some reason. I haven't seen him that bad since Nari." San realised what he said and instantly closed his mouth. He must have thought that I didn't know about Nari.

"Don't worry! Seonghwa already told me about Nari. I know what happened to her."

"Y/N, I need you to answer a question for me as honestly as you can." San pleaded with his eyes.

"Why is Wooyoung so worried about you? He has never cared about any girls after Nari other than you so what changed him?"

"It was after my argument with Jongho." I started to explain.

"You don't need to explain fully if you don't want to! I just wanted to know why Wooyoung freaked out so much and if you are really ok. You can tell me anything though and I will keep it too myself if you ever need to."

"No, I will tell you now!" I needed to tell him. Maybe he could help stop Wooyoung's panic attacks if I told him.

"So after my argument with Jongho, I ran home. I decided that I had enough of this life I lived. I felt unwanted and as if I didn't deserve to have any friends. I gave up. I gave up on my life. What is the point of me living if I had no one. Jongho always made me happy when we saw each other. The other day when he fell out with me made me feel alone again. I thought I had nobody so I decided to leave this cruel world. I tried to but didn't succeed as Seonghwa and Wooyoung came to stop me. I kind of wish they didn't stop me but I guess it was meant to be. I'm guessing that is why Wooyoung worried about me today."

I didn't tell San that I tried it again because I didn't want anymore people to know about it. Especially Wooyoung. He would freak out if he knew so it is best for him to not know.

"Oh y/n!" San sighed as he comforted me.

"Please don't think that you are alone. You have all of us. If you can't talk to Jongho, come to one of us. We will do everything we can to help you out. We may not have known you long but you mean the world to us y/n. Please use us to help you."

I am not going to hurt anyone again. I am not going to hurt myself again. I will try my best to stop this and I mean it this time.
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