What Hides Beneath Her Eyes: Chris Evans Daughter Fan fiction {Discontinued}

Chapter 16

Kate's Pov

When I say, I've been feeling a bit happier, I'm telling the truth. It's been another month, and you know I'm growing use to having Chris around more and more, and I like having the feeling of actually having people there for me.

It's a nice feeling of secruity, I guess. I still think of a lot of things from when I was younger.

Matthew is always on my mind, but he would want me to be happy I hope. He was only 2 almost 3, but he would always try to make me smile. I miss him. I forever will, and there will probably never be a day that I don't think of him.

Other than that, Uncle Scott is really cool, he's been trying to get me use to being around more than just one person, which is usually Chris.

So he comes around often, and Chris, I still feel like I'm a burden to him. But he reassures me a lot that I'm not, and that I'm important to him.

I don't get why, but that's that. Also I'm still friends with Will, Peter, and David.

I aslo got to Therapy, and have been for the past month every Saturday. I fucking hate it, but I always get my therapist to tell her drama from her husband.

She complains about him a lot, and I don't get why she doesn't just leave the dude, but she always ends it with 'every marriage has its problems but with good communication, it can always be fixed' and meanwhile she says this, I just think back about how I'm an 11 year old girl, and don't care for relationships currently.

It's fun though, she also said that kids who experienced depression and truama make them mature faster. It's whatever tho.

I talk to Chris way more now, he still seems really on the edge whenever I get left alone, which I get bit that's annoying, but am I gonna say anything about it? Not at all.

He's a parent, and parents are allowed to do anything. Right? Maybe not right but they sure as hell can care if they're kids are fucked up at the mind. I just don't understand.

And I don't even get what I don't understand. Its like ayy cool you have me now, and you're teaching me what should really be going on, but the thought in my head is are you sure? Its like I'm doubting him to a point.

I've been raised to expect pain if I do anything wrong, how to sneak out at night because you want a bit of freedom, but if you ask for it you're gonna end up hurt. I was taught how to respect but in the wrong way. I was taught that I wasn't important and that whatever I think isn't important.

And being with a person you met at night at a park, that cares about you, and you love them as a father doesn't change the fact of what I learned. It changes some of the ways I look at things but at the same time I still have sorta the same thought process.

Its weird. And I've been told time and time before that for my age, my thought process shouldn't be like this, and to that I say, I'm almost 12.

Also I don't think Chris has told anyone but his brother that he has me in his family. As if he was reading my mind he started talking.

"News, Do you know what Thanksgiving is?"

"Yes, I got a week off from school because of it, it was horrible. Never have celebrated it for obvious reasons."

"So thanksgiving dinner, something I do with my family, now your family also every year."

"So basically what you are saying is people in your family will know about your secret kid?"

"Exactly because I haven't told anyone but Scott, for reasons, mostly because it keeps slipping my mind."

"Ah yes because having a new kid is often something you forget to tell your parents."

"Yeah well Thanksgiving is next week, so next week on Thursday you will meet your new family."

"Question. Do I have grandparents?"

"Yes, both are still alive, you also have another Uncle and 2 aunts."

"I know that, Scott told me. He also told me he should be my favorite."

"Of course he did, well that will also be the first time they hear about you or meet you?"

"This will be fun."

"Yes it will be."

Tommorow is my last day of school before going on Thanksgiving break, and the boys are asking me what my Instagram is. Which I found out is a social media app.

I still don't have a phone, so that's exactly what I told them. That I don't have a phone, they suggested I buy a burner phone. Which I also got informed that is a phone that no one can track.

So uhm- yeah. Anyway, life is going okay right now, I'm just getting through the days, and seeing where it takes me, just like everyone else.

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A/N Yes I know it's been a long time since I've updated, reason is I've already written this book once and then it got deleted, so I didn't have much of a motivation to write it again

But imma do it, because I have to, and I just have 8 more chapters and then the books ends, so I'll finish it by tommorow or at least I hope I do, imma work on this the rest of today and yeah.