hate me

3 | what i deserve

her pov
i stand up, seeing an empty hallway.

why shouldnt it be empty? it's 5pm who would be here except a homeless bitch like me?

i stumble towards the exit knowing what waits for me at home.
i make my way to my bike and unlock it.
when i want to ride away i see that my bicycle chain is broken.

this cant be happening, ugh!

i take my bike and walk home.
7 miles are no short walk, i am exhausted after just 3 miles.
i take a break on a bench. I hate this day, wait what am i saying

I HATE MY LIFE!

while im breathing heavily, a car stops next to me,
i look up to see Mary with a worried face.
"whats up with you here?" she says.
'uhm, im just takin a break, i guess' i mumble.
"taking a break from what?" she asks.
'from walking home, my chain broke' i mouth, nodding towards my bike.
"ouh" I could see her brain thinking
"but i could take you home" she says, her chops widening.

what am i supposed to do when the most gorgeous and popular girl in school offers to take me, the quiet bullying victim, home from school?

i shyly nod in agreement.
Mary hops out of the car, takes my bike and puts it inside the vehicle.
i watch her doing so and look at her with big eyes when she nodds towards the passenger seats door.
i climb into the car.
she smiles at me while she slowly starts driving.

"whats your addy?" she asks while focusing on the road.
'its brooklyn street 10' i respond with my head turned to my window counting the trees which seem to run past us.
she nods and i can hear her thinking again.

I know this sounds weird, but i just feel it!

out of nowhere she sighs heavily and tilts her head to my direction.
I can feel her gaze and i turn around to meet her eyes.

'sup?' i whisper under my breath.

she breathes calmly focusing the road again.
"you know, i-i hate seeing you being bullied" she mouthes.
oh thank you, the pity number.
'oh' i say deadly serious.
"no for real, i already talked to the boys of your class"
wait what
"i forgot their names, i think it was something with Luke and Shaw?"
now i am breathing heavily.
'Lucas and Shawn' i stumble.
did she really talk to them??

"ahh yess, such dickheads" she says with disgustment on her face.
'you didnt have to...' i whisper.
"ouh I wanted to dont worry" she responds while smiling in my direction.

what am i supposed to say?
this is one of the nicest things someone has ever done for me.

'th-tha-thanks, i mea-mean thank y-you' i say quietly.
"your welcome" she smiles.

why is she so nice?

it went silent.
"You know on friday is a party at Claire's"
Mary says while driving down the last meters to my house.
'what is my connection to this?' i ask inquiringly looking over to her.
"You know, you should come" she says through her teeth.

before i can think, i speak my thoughts aloud.
'no i shouldnt' i mouth leaning back concentrating on the trees again.
"yes you should! i'll introduce you and everything, it will be great." she says excitingly.

oh hell no.

"cmon give me your phone" she orders and i obey without thinking.
she types something really fast inside my phone and hands it back to me.
"so this is my phone number, ill text ya when i'll pick you up" she says while stopping in front of my house.
'no Mary please, i hate parties' i whisper.
"Grace, the world has to know you to like you"

with that she jumps out of her car and makes her way to the passengers door. she opens it and smiles at me.
I stand up and leave the car while Mary pulls my bike out of the trunk.
she hands it to me with a grin on her face.

"I hope you have a good evening Grace" she says while walking to her car.
'wait Mary!" I snap, which causes her to stop and turn around.
"yeah?" she asks.
'why are u so kind to me?" i mouth.
"Grace" she starts, "you earn so much more than what has been done to you"
with those words she jumps inside her car and drives off.

and so, i turn around facing my home, and suddenly everything comes back to my mind and my smile fades away.

-home-

isn't a good thing