(If you don't like vents please skip this thank you)
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Why so you switch so easily on me mother..?
Why can you hurt me and break me and then 10 minutes later your "sorry" but you don't mean it..? And you try to make things "alright" again and when things are "alright" for 30 minutes you go back to trying to destroy the Last shards of my remaining mental sanity.
You know I'll self harm
You know that I have
You know that's how I escape the pain you cause me.
You know that I'm seeing a therapist because of my suicide attempts and self harm
You know I'll try again if you push me enough
Yet you still do all you can to break me and make me cry.
Hehe...hehe.....you really believe that YOUR a good mother of all people..?
And you say I'm disgusting...
What Good mother sees their child feeling good about themselves and having a good amount of self esteem and decides...to break it all down..
What good mother... calls their kid worthless...?
Useless
Disgusting
Vile
A monster
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Hahahahaha...
Yes...of course....a good mother tells her child that she wants to abandon them...
How could I be so stupid? A good mother tells Their kid to KILL THEMSELVES
Wow I'm just an idiot...I clearly dont know what a parent shouldn't and should do...what does what I say matter? I'm just a kid therefore I'm always wrong and clearly nees to shut my mouth and listen to everything you say.
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Why am I supposed to apologize for being myself?
Why am I supposed to apologize to YOU after YOU hurt me and beat me?
Why is everything MY fault..??!?
I didn't abuse my self thanks. Dont blame me because you got caught for doing something illegal.
How about you DONT do illegal shit to get caught in the first place!?!?
YOU KNOW LIKE NOT BEAT YOUR KIDS DAMNIT
