His Eyes | Tensemi!

17

Tendou fell asleep in Eita's arms that night. They were warm, like soft pillows. They were safe, like the field. Far away from Izuku, from everything. Once Tendou made sure Eita was asleep, he took a small bag out of his hiding spot. His bag of morphine. Clearly, just one pill stopped working. He took two, only two. As he swallowed the pills, a rush of warmth crept through him. He let out a shaky sigh. He put the bag back and crawled into Eita's arms once more. Now he was definitely safe. He wanted to stay in Semi Eita's arms forever...

The alarm woke Tendou up. It was Monday. Eita turned it off and pulled Tendou closer to his chest. Just a little bit longer...Just a moment more in Eita's safe arms. The moment was over when Kota knocked on the door. 

"Wake up boys!" she called. Tendou sighed and got up, rubbing the crust out of his eyes from the tears spilled from the other night. Nightmare or not, Tendou always cried in his sleep. It had become habit for years. Kota walked in and handed Tendou some coffee. He mumbled thanks and took a sip. Tendou immediately perked up.

After getting ready for school, he held Eita's hand as they walked to the car. Tendou pecked his lips for a quick taste of buttercream. 

"What was that for?" Eita huffed. 

"You taste like buttercream. It's more addictive than drugs..." Eita stopped in his tracks. 

"Don't say that, Satori. I don't want you taking drugs!" Tendou rolled his eyes. 

"Of course I'm not!" a hint of guilt spread through him as he remembered taking two more morphine pills that morning. He tried to wash it away. He needed those pills. They were the only thing that helped him feel good again. Tendou opened the car door and sat beside Eita. As they drove to Shiratorizawa, Eita placed his hand on Tendou's thigh. "You're very touchy-feely today," Tendou remarked. 

"Am not," Eita replied, removing his hand. 

"No! I like it! It's comforting!" Tendou put Eita's hand back. "Why are you so cold today, SemiSemi?" 

"I'm tired. you know I hate school," Eita replied. "Plus I have to see that trashcan Wakatoshi..."

"What was that last part?" 

"Nothing." Tendou held Eita's hand on their way to school. They got multiple stares as they walked hand in hand until they had to part ways. 

"See you at lunch!" Tendou called. Semi nodded. Tendou walked into homeroom and sat next to Ushijima as usual. Just by looking at those golden eyes, his heart started to ache. "I'm...sorry about yesterday..." he mumbled. Ushijima didn't look at him. "Please, Wakatoshi..." 

"Don't call me that," Ushijima's voice rumbled. "You obviously love him."

"What do you mean? I don't know what I...feel for him. He's the only thing I haven't screwed up. Look, I'm sorry. I messed up yesterday." Tendou decided to pull back. "It's fine, I get it. I'm a little much for everyone..." Ushijima turned to look at him with those golden eyes. Those beautiful, golden eyes. 

"You aren't too much for me...I just don't understand why you chose him? Our promise?" Tendou's heart ached. He knew Ushijima was bad...but...he couldn't help but give in to him. 

"I...I won't break it again..." 

"See me at lunch?" Tendou nodded, finding himself falling deeper into the lies. But those eyes...Tendou would do anything for those eyes. The color of the golden grass on the field. But then the grey sky...Eita's eyes..those stormy grey eyes. His eyes. Guilt welled up in Tendou's stomach. 

Tendou felt sick the rest of the day. With every bad decision he made, he felt a piece of him died. Ushijima knew he was lovesick, and promised Tendou would be alright. But what if it was bullshit? The longer Tendou kept on thinking, the less he felt alive. When the bell for lunch rang, he ran to the bathroom, feeling as though he might puke. He heard a voice yelling for him. 

"HEY TENDOU!! WAIT, WHERE ARE YOU GOING?" Tendou ignored the voice, he just had to make it inside the bathroom before it was too late. He threw up in the toilet, but it wasn't normal puke. Inside the toilet, was blood and flower petals. Footsteps rang behind him. It was Goshiki, who looked frightened. 

"T-Tendou? Who did this to you?" Tendou looked back at the toilet and wiped the blood from his mouth. Was he poisoned? 

"What do you mean....?