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i preach (vent) my life knowledge

i feel the need to share my artist knowledge! just saying, this is my opinion okay? don't take it too seriously.

i need to vent. this has been one stressful week, and i finally snapped. now, just saying, there are a lot of people who need emotional support and i'm okay, and my life is a mess but it's nothing to complain about a lot, so don't worry about me!

bruh this grammar is probably so bad im sorry

- the world doesn't revolve around you, but your world does. don't spent your life listening to people who believe otherwise.

- everyone knows being an artist is no well-payed job, until, of course, you die and then everyone realizes how totally awesome you were, and then your once trash paintings are suddenly millions of dollars and all of the people who hated you and said you were trash want to offer millions for your work. so why be an artist at all?

- there is no right or wrong answer. if you want to be famous, or like to draw, or if you're not even serious about it and art is just a hobby, something that calms you. my reason is simply because i love to. there are so many things that make me want to give up and scream and cry, and art is probably the source of most of that feeling. still, for some reason, art is something i can and will do, every day, as soon as i freaking can.

- if your parents or friends or whoever don't support you, in ANYTHING (except drugs don't do drugs kids) then ignore them. this is no simple task though. i know, it's not something you just do. nobody has the right to just say 'ignore it' and expect you to feel better automatically. no matter how hard you try, they always find a way to grab your attention for just a second and smash your self esteem and confidence into tiny fragments. the word ignore in this context should really mean something more like 'be determined'. what i want you to do is: next time that person comes, and smashes you into pieces, i just need you to pick them up. don't try and fix what's broken - because another obstacle is around the corner. fixing things isn't how we make it. 

carry those broken shards to the finish line, with bleeding hands and wet tears rolling down your cheeks. because, as long as you don't give up, you will make it. and then, you have time. time to fix what people have tried to break because now you have the world's attention. while you were walking to the finish, people noticed you. whether you know it or not, there are people out there - even in her, in this community - who support you. they will help you pick up the pieces if you let them. that's the best way to ignore it.

- now this is a big one for me. i do digital art right? and my parents are big about screen time. my mom is obsessed with this 'knowledge' that i am addicted to my iPad, phone, whatever. this is wrong on so many levels. i have chosen digital art as my career. DIGITAL. this means that i am using my iPad to make ART. THUS, MY SCREEN TIME IS KINDA BIG. people who aren't artists or writers or people who don't work on big, long term projects don't get it, or they just can't relate. but, art takes time. as an artist, we trade time for quality. the more time and effort, the better quality. i am well prepared to have a massive screen time, burn a hole in my eyes, whatever i need to do, if it means i can do digital art.

this is more than just a hobby for me. for once in my life there is something solid i can decide on, one single future that i have always been intertwined with, and now I've decided i'm going to get there. if it means i spend all my extra time in my sketchbook, if it means i ignore a few homeworks or stay up too late, i want to get digital art, at least. and, if my parents can't see what i have to do to get my dreams to come true just a little earlier, the so be it.

- my dad likes to say 'how much do you want to suffer' whenever i say no to something. first of all, saying no is not illegal. if don't support something, whether it be a teacher or a god who says it, i will not shut up. my opinion is valuable to me, and i will express it as openly as i express liking or hating someone.