yesterday, i wanted to die
but when i saw him
standing beside me
telling me how much he loved me
maybe i wanted to stay a little longer
when i saw my dog
looking for me
making me feel how loved i am
maybe i wanted to stay a little longer
when i saw my brother
sharing me memes
making me laugh 'til i cry
maybe i wanted to stay a little longer
when i saw my mom
hugging me to the bones
telling me how much she misses me
maybe i wanted to stay a little longer
when i saw my dad
yelling my name
waiting for me to answer
maybe i wanted to stay a little longer
i can't believe
that all it would take
for me to stay
is that last minute
where they ask me
what went wrong
or where they went wrong
but yesterday, i wanted to die
so then i saw him
standing beside my casket
telling me how much he loved me
then i saw my dog
looking for me
wondering why i'm still not home
then i saw my brother
sharing memes to my memorialized account
wishing i were still there to laugh at it
then i saw my mom
hugging my cold bones
asking why her baby's gone
then i saw my dad
yelling my name
hoping to God i would answer
—maybe i should've stayed a little longer.
i can't believe
that all it would take
for me to stay
is that last minute
where they ask themselves
what went wrong
or where they went wrong
that last minute
where i couldn't tell them that they didn't.
—that i did.
that last minute
where i try explaining
how it's not about them
in the letter
they can't even dare to look at
that last minute
where i say it's okay
but they couldn't hear my voice
where i say i'm here
but they couldn't see my face
where i say i love them
but they couldn't feel my touch
it's so sad to think about
how all it would take
for me to stay
is that last minute
where it's all too late.
—i should've stayed a little longer.
