The Red Roses (Amajiki Tamaki x fem! Reader)

Chapter 6 ~ His Fear

Amajikis POV chapter

My heart was beating a mile a minute - I was almost caught by her.

Even though she was looking around, those beautiful E/C eyes glistening like  diamonds in the dimly lit night, she couldn't see me.

Having done this so often, I became pretty good at hiding myself.

My heart melted when i saw that beautiful smile spread across her soft lips, holding the rose and note in her hands.

She was like an Angel, beautiful, and caring…

What would she do if she knew a lowlife like me liked her? She'd laugh in my face, despite the fact that we were friends.

She probably didn't even remember the "wedding", and of she did, she definitely meant it as in "we'll stay together as friends" not as in "I actually want to marry you.

This was the only way I could let her know that I was in love with her.

Ever since that first time we spoke after nine years, the way she didn't force me to speak with her, how she didn't downplay on my anxiety, encouraging me instead…

It made my heart beat like a drum…

My little, beautiful, gentle butterfly.

So close to me, but so, so far away.

The curtains closed, and i was left there, alone. No more butterfly…

"Amajiki!?" A familiar voice whispered.

Mirio stood there, his mouth agape.

"SO IT WAS Y-" I had to cover his mouth because, even though he didn't have a bad intention, Mirio would have said it out loud.

"Shhhh! Yes, it's…me."

My best friend laughed to himself. "I kind of had the feeling it was you… but i always thought you were too shy to charm a girl like this."

"I-I'm… I'm not charming her! She… She probably j-just…"

Mirio just laughed again.
"You think you're not good enough for her and you think she'll-" he put his hands up to do quotation marks" "hate you even more" if she found out it's you who likes her?"

Damnit… he knows me too well.

"Y-yes…"

"Tamaki, you always downplay yourself like this. If there's ANYONE who's good enough for her IT'S YOU."

My best friend always tried to encourage me like this… But he was probably just saying it to make me feel better.

"And besides, she doesn't hate you."

"How would you know…"

Mirio sighed "Because, Tamaki, she told me how nice you were to her during training just the other day. Maybe she didn't tell you, but she thinks you're really cool."

Did my butterfly really say that? Do… do i have a chance?

The feeling that coursed trough my body was so sudden and harsh that i had the need to run up to her house, barge in, and kiss her.

Then after realizing what i thought, I got the need to jump off of a skyscraper and hope no hero is around to save me.

"Why don't you just… tell her how you feel?"

"It… It's not that easy Mirio…"

"Maybe it's not that easy, but it's a whole lot easier than you may think it is."

He… does have a point. At times like this I can just wish to have at least two percent of his bravery. Me and Mirio were just total opposites.

"Maybe you're right, but… what if she doesn't like me?"

I couldn't imagine a fate worse than that.

A fate worse than death itself

That would be a punishments so harsh that my heart would stop.

No torture method or device could hurt more than the heartbreak…

The heartbreak after my butterfly leaves me…

I don't want that…

I don't want my butterfly to fly away again.