Oops... I Did It Again

Chapter 2

Author's note:

Thanks for the great feedback on Chapter 1! 3

bobbiejelly

Oops... I Did It Again

'I played with your heart... Got lost in the game... Oh, baby, baby...'

Chapter 2

You think that you definitely dodged a bullet by not having your underwear all up in front of everyone.

People pass by and make fun of the spare space below the Lost and Found sign now, but it's nothing compared to what it would be like had your panties still been there.

You left Addison to sleep it off in Richard's office, and now you're off to surgery again.

Your whole body aches, and not just from working.

You miss her.

It's bizarre, because she's never been yours to have or to hold, but after that first time you spent with her, you got attached.

You weren't supposed to; that wasn't part of the plan.

You had both agreed to it because you knew it was temporary.

And that night was, and your feelings weren't.

And that's on you.

Every time you see her now, talking with families and patients you remember her stroking your hair soothingly, holding you in her arms, making you feel special.

She makes people feel special, and you want to show her just how much.

After her rejection though, you just can't handle the loneliness anymore, so you try to date Derek, you try to date Finn.

Derek brings you brain surgeries, and Finn brings you pumpinkin spice loaf.

You feel like more of a whore than you ever were, using these men to fill some sort of void in your heart even after you're sure they could never feel like she did.

You wonder what she's thinking about since that morning, you go to check up on her once the curiosity overtakes you, and you don't see her after your surgery.

You figure she must have gone home until you see her at Joe's, out for the count on who knows what, some sort of hat falling off of her head.

She looks gorgeous, even in probably the least (in her opinion, anyway), fashionable items she probably owns.

You're about to talk to her when you see Bailey helping her into a cab, and then she's gone before you have a chance to even wave goodbye.

Bailey sees you looking that way and she misunderstands the situation, but of course, in your eyes you're here to talk to her about her husband, or ex-husband, or whatever or something.

She asks you why you seem to be begging for forgiveness when you didn't ask her permission for any of it.

She has no idea.

You shake your head at yourself, not at her, and she sighs and places a hand on your shoulder.

She tells you you can only learn from your mistakes.

You want to tell her you don't think you'll ever recover from this one.

She seems to see how forlorn you are, and offers to call you a cab as well.

You nod, because it's probably a better idea than you driving home at this point.

As Bailey seats you in the backseat of the next taxi that arrives, she whispers to you not to get too 'lost in the game,' that you forget just what you are playing for.

You wonder, idly, if she told Addison something along the lines of that half an hour ago.

***** END OF CHAPTER 2

Author's Note:

Thanks for reading, folks!

bobbiejelly