through his eyes | h.hj & l.fl

ii. stop it.

hyunjin just wanted felix to stop so that he can finally stop himself too.

tag(s): mentions of food

edited: 03092021

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stop it.

hyunjin didn't ask you to be so nice to him, felix. please, just stop it. no matter how hard you try to look tough, you're still that fluffball of a sunshine. so, stop it.

stop smiling like that when he didn't ask you to. stop waving your hand at him as he ponder about the choices he did in his life.

stop looking so beautiful, wearing somebody else's clothes when it should've been his.

stop trying to make his heart flutter.

he can no longer hold it in.

fuck.

"are you okay, hyunjin?"

hyunjin wanted to tear those glinting eyes away. he wanted to stop staring, to stop feeling things.

why are your eyes so nice, felix? why did you have to be so nice?

"yeah," hyunjin pushed out a voice from his chest, he didn't even know he was holding some air in it, "i'm fine. is that chan's?"

hyunjin felt disappointed of himself. he shouldn't feel any of that anyway, but he does. felix was looking too pretty for his liking, too bright for his liking.

if felix wouldn't stop being the dream that he chases, then hyunjin wouldn't stop too.

if felix won't stop, hyunjin would not, too.

so please, stop it.

"yeah. but i figured i like yours more, can i borrow that?"

he saw felix watching him cling onto the piece of clothing inside his arms.

if only you knew.

of course you can.

felix, you always can.

hyunjin walked towards felix, thankful to not have any roommate and grabbed his very thin wrist and dragged him inside, completely forgetting the fact that he just woke up. his hair might stick everywhere, but it's okay, what else can he hide from felix anyway?

"where are you going with my hoodie?" it was a question that hyunjin didn't really need an answer to. he just wanted to listen to felix's hum, felix's grumble and low voice.

he'll do anything to hear you, to listen to you. he'll do anything for you felix, so please just stop it. he swears, he can no longer hold it in; he'll cry, he'll scream, he'll tear his hair off if that is even possible.

he'll do anything just to stop feeling the pain, felix.

so stop.

and tell him to stop.

"you wanna come with me?"

aaaaah. meanie. he'll come with you to the end of this journey. he'll come with you until you don't want his presence anymore; until you grew tired of his shit and of everything that he has to offer.

he'll come with you.

until you no longer want him to.

so please felix, stop and tell him that you want this to stop.

because if you don't, he might fall in love and you wouldn't want hyunjin to fall in love with you, don't you?

"let's grab some food together."

it feels nice when felix said together, but there was something missing there. where's forever?

where was it when he needed it the most? where was it when he knew that he'll lose you? that someday you'll wake up and stop pretending that you don't notice him glaring at you, that you don't notice him staring at you, at your tiny hands, at your tiny face. that someday, among all the other days where he was sure that he wouldn't feel anything for you, you'll realize that he was doing all of these because he likes you?

hyunjin likes you.

i like you.

so stop doing all of these to him, felix. he can't lose you. not today, not tomorrow and not all the other days in the future.

if he gets to spend his lifetime with you, only beside him and merely watching, he'll take risks.

after all, he loves risks. he loves adventure.

and you might just be the most dangerous journey he has to venture.

so before he gets any further damage,

can you please stop this?

haha. pretty please, felix?

"wear my hoodie, it's a lot warmer."

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