Feeling Myself

Love at first sight

This my first time writing a book like this, so please hang on with me

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"5 Minutes to show time everyone" My manger yelled.

I sigh and look down at my shoes with my hands shaking, I gulp and practice singing in my head.

"Let's go, let's go" i was being push to the side of stage.

"Beyoncé, Beyonce" They cheer for me

I smile and prayed everything go okay,remember what momma always told you....

I'm a strong young lady don't let nobody put you down god always there to protect you

BOOM

I walk on stage and begin singing flawless and dancing my ass out

"I woke up like this, flawless" the crowd sing with me

I turn and walk back to the dancers behide me and start slow twerking because I knew Ms.minaj was coming up.

"Give it up to Bey" she scream

I laugh and walk next to her

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Beyoncé Dressing Room

"Thanks for coming Nic" I gave her a hug

"Anything for you" she hug back and squeeze my ass

"Damn Nic" I giggle

"You know you like it" she let go and walk out the door

"Wait Nic" I started

"Yeah" she look back

"Call me" I start shaking in my voice

"I will at 10, I promise" she wave and left

I smile to myself and flip my hair

I close my door and lock it making sure nobody would walk in on me.
I strip down and left my on bra and panties. I open my closet and grab my pink sweats. I look at my hand and saw my ring, I was about hurry and look for it but i remember what happen before the show

------Before------

"It's not what it look like" Jay push a hoe off him

"Really in my dressing room" I slowly drop tears

The hoe hurry and ran off without saying a word

"Im sorry bey I can explain" He came closer to me

I tun my head and push him

"No I'm sick of the lies and cheating I'm over it" I let a weak smile appear on my face

"We over" I threw the ring he got me at his face

"Bey look I'm -"

"Leave me alone don't every call or text my phone unless it for music" I open the door and let him go by

"I'm sorry" he look at me with sorrow in his eyes and gave me a packet with my name on it

"Bye" I slam my door and start crying

-Real life

I grab my bags and everything and went to my car drove to my hotel

I was driving slow thinking what am I'm gonna do now, I look over and saw the packet Jay gave me before he left.

I pulled in the hotel parkway and walk to my the back way. Once I made it to my room I sat on the bed and open the packet.

"Oh lord"

I open it and pulled out some money, cards with hearts, letters, credits cards, and much more.

I counted the money it was about 15 thousand, I'll go shopping in the morning. I open the letter he wrote me today.

Dear Bey

I know living a lie wasn't gonna last but I knew it would happen soon-

My phone start ringing, it was nicki

I hurry answer the phone

"Hey" I spoke

"Hey boo what's up" she answer

"Oh reading tweets and comments" I lied

"Oh I was wondering can I come over for a few hours I'm kinda um-" she started

"Your bored?"

"Yeah" she giggle

"Come over I be up" I smile

"Okay see yeh" she hung up

I hurry putting everything away

I change to some booty shorts & a crop top with white slippers.

Ding Dong

I walk and answer the door

"Hi Nicki" I hug her letting her in

"Hi bae " she sat on the couch

"So was up" I sat across her

"Safaree cheated" she wipe her streaming tears

"I'm so sorry" I gave her some tissue

"It my fault" she cried harder

"No it not he lost something so great Nicki don't beat yourself up" I scoot closer to her

I look in her eyes and they was big and puffy

"I'm sorry Nic" I pulled her and hug her

"It's okay I'm much better without him" she smile and wipe her face off

I stood up and cross my arms

"We are strong black woman's" I clapped my hands

"Oh shut up, I should be leaving, is Jay coming back soon?" She ask

"No he never coming back,I finish his ass off earlier before the show"

"Wow he must really not know what he had" She had a suppose face on

"Fuck em, I don't care I guess it me and myself for a while"

Nobody else said anything what gave each other looks and start laughing

"What I'm post to for my Horny needs" Nicki moan

"Um I don't know" I look at her

"How can I fix it Bey"

"Well-"

I got cut off by her pushing me on the sofa

"Nika-"

"Sh" she cover my face and start striping in front of me

I start breathing heavy I never done this and it to soon, I like boys... don't i?