My Love Song Story

Amnesia

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

Dalam diam, aku terus mendengarkan suara gitar dan empunya bernyanyi. Diam seperti orang bodoh yang mendengar tanpa bisa melihat.

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

"Dekkk?"

Aku langsung meletakkan telunjuk di depan bibirku dan berdesis. Kak Wisnu berisik ah! Aku kan sibuk mendengarkan!

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

(5 Seconds to Summer - Amnesia)

"Udah dek?"

Ck! Kak Wisnu sama aja kayak Nelli deh! Bisa bikin orang kepergok! Tapi syukur Kak Wisnu ga mengonggong kayak Nelli waktu itu sampai akhirnya Carmello tahu aku menunggu di luar dan mendengarkan dia bermain musik.

"Udahhh! Ayo pulang!"

Lucu kan?

Aku memang hanya sampai di depan pagar rumah Carmello. Di jam yang sama seperti dulu aku mengunjungi rumah ini. Aku hanya merindukan... Entahlah. Aku merindukan permainannya. Mungkin sekaligus orangnya.