I'm just both (Larry/Larcel)

Chapter 23

"How could you?" Lou said as his eyes waters

"What the fuck answer me Harry or would you rather be called Marcel?" His voice cracked full of sarcasm full of pain

"I-I just.. I'm.... Its complicated and ... I'm sorry.... I was... I" I couldn't get a sentence out and it frustrates me

"I was what watching over me were you stocking me or was this something you thought would be fun.." he stopped wiping his eyes and turning his head away from me

Then he turned his face back to me "I.. I told you everything and you couldn't tell me this one thing you asshole I knew I shouldn't of let someone in I just fucking knew" his voice cracked even more

"Louis please I didn't mean to I wanted to tell you I was just ...." I couldn't find the right word

"Just what ?!" He yelled starring into my eyes but I felt so guilty looking into those blue eyes

"Afraid, scared, nervous, paranoid" I cried

"Well thats not a good enough excuse because I felt all those things before I told you everything It took me so long to tell you so why couldn't you just tell me your Marcel" he harshly said pulling his own hair

"Please" I cried

"No bye Harry, forever I officially Hate you!" he said turning and walking out leaving me to myself alone and frail

I eventually collected myself thinking of Louis and what he said and I feel so much pain

I walked out of the locker room to see Louis deeply snogging a girl from our school his tongue down her throat and I just painfully watched for a while

"Would you like to take this to my flat" she asks him in a sexy voice

"I would love that" he told her making me cry out in pain leaving with whats left of me

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Its been 3 days and I'm drunk right now, Niall has been trying to contact me and came to my house a few times but I didn't answer

Right now I'm drunk out of my mind the most I've ever been and I just know I'm a mess right now I'm watching tv and laughing but I don't remember why and now I just go super depressed because I thought of Louis and started crying

I hear the door an go to it an open it

"Niall?" I said looking at his face that is teary eyed

"My girlfriend was cheating on me and I needed someone and you disappeared and I've been thinking.." He stopped and swallowed hard

"Come on in and join the party" I said louder then intended and he did

"So tell me what happened?" I asked

"She was cheating on me with a girl well her room mate and for worst I caught them canoodling and it hurt" he said as I passed him the vodka and he took a swing

"It'll be ok um... Lou broke up with me he found out about Marcel so I'm depressed on top of it he's fucking some girl and told me he hates me so ya" I cried

"Harry... I don't hate you and I was thinking over the days that I um how do I say this... I want to know what its like to have a boy and I'm gay well think I am and Harry I think your fucking hot" he said his breath on my ear all of a sudden me still wondering how this happened

And I don't really know what happened but his lips were on mine and we are making out full on

Cloth being flung and both of us breathless looking into each others eye's there was touching moaning and hands in places they maybe shouldn't be

I think we went all the way but I just cant remember but right now ..

I have a headache, I feel like puking, and Im in my bed naked and so is he

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