oblivious. - kuzusouda.

4

fuyuhiko

what the fuck is wrong with me. i just gave up the one chance my body and brain would actually take to tell him. its not too late ,, i can just say i change my mind ,, but that sounds hella sketchy. am i just supposed to deal with this ?? what the fuck ! i did this to myself ! i should have said yes ... why didn't i ?? my words are just rejecting the word yes ... dammit !! why do *i* of all people have to deal with this shit !?

"oh , cool."

cool !? what does he mean by that ,, was he confessing ? no. i wouldn't get so lucky -

"why do you ask ? we've never talked about that shit before."

"i just -- i was thinkin about what gundham said again ,, i just cant get it off my mind. do YOU think we look like a couple ??"

dammit ,, i mean , i do. but thats only because i love the idiot.
"no , i guess not -- i dont know what other people think you fuckn dumbass !!"

"eugh .. sorry --"

[end of the school day.]

kazuichi

when i asked him he was actin a bit strange , defensive almost. am i bein stupid ? i mean ,, it IS possible. he COULD like me ,, do i like him ? im back at that question again ... i dunno , he's attractive , yea. but i don't know if i'd date him - what would it be like datin him ? ... hypothetically , i did like him. and i asked him out ,, we'd prolly go one walks as usual down the rocky path , next to the train tracks , holding hands; and maybe cuddle on a bench -- no !! what am i thinking ?? why am i getting so deep into thought about it , maybe i do like him ? hm.

kazuichi let his mind wander as he gathered his stuff for the day; letting fuyuhiko come to him instead of him going to fuyuhiko. kazuichi had bought some cookie dough for kuzuryuu , he had been thinking about if they were dating for a bit. it sounded nice , but of course he knew they were only fantasies and they weren't real. so , he was basically enjoying his imagination. but , he believed that .. as soon as he find out what he truly felt for fuyu , he'd make those dreams come true. anyways , as souda got all of his stuff , he put his back onto the many lockers and slid down , sitting down shortly after.

later , fuyuhiko arrived; and was pretty happy to find cookie dough waiting for him. kazuichi sat up in surprise of how early he was. "oh ! hey fuyu , i got some of yer favorite stuff here ! name brand too !!" kazuichi said , quite proudly. fuyuhiko grinned , and sat down with him; which confused kazuichi. "heh ? are we not goin to go walk home ?" he asked , raising a brow. "nah. we can sit here , i told ms. yukezome that we'd be studying together after school hours." fuyuhiko explained nonchalantly , taking a scoop out of the container. "what !? but - i dont wanna study !" he yelled a bit worried. "ya idiot ! i said that so we could stay here ,, alone." kazuichi sighed , who knew someone could get so worked up over studying. he let out laughter. "heheh , did ya really wanna be with me that bad ??" fuyuhiko immediately looked up , a bit angry , but also knew that was correct.

"no i fuckn dont ! ill leave if i have to !"

"wait ! sorry , ill shut up now , heh."

"yeah , you better."

kazuichi was pretty blunt , and said what was on his mind. so , he did so.
"hey ,, what does it mean to like someone ?"

"what ? who do ya like ?"

"like id tell you ! and i dunno if i like them , thats why im askin you."

he sighed , sitting up more.
"well , to put in my own words , id say it means ya wanna spend the rest of yer life with em , and youd do anything for them if they're happy."