𝐁𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐑𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐬 ❀ 𝐘𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐮𝐚 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

Chapter 5

I should just take charge and say it was me and that I forced him to be with a loser like me or something like that. I just need to be able to convince people that he's not by my side and that he shouldn't be harmed too

But I guess I should focus on the situation I'm going to go through, should I tell him that I can't get anything from the sweet shop since I don't have money? If so, than I guess I should tell him before we go further

Y/N: Hey Gon...

Gon: Yeah?

Y/N: I can't go to get sweets with you

Gon: Don't worry they have more than sweets there if you don't like sweets

Y/N: N-No I mean I don't-

I only managed to mumble what I needed to say. I guess I'm shamed in him knowing I don't have money since he was trying to invite me somewhere and I don't even have the money to pay of something that cheap and simple

Gon: Sorry I didn't understand can you repeat it?

Y/N: I don't have-

I need to stop mumbling but I'm scared and nothing is getting ride of my fear. I got so used to the feeling of fear that now I can't stop feeling it constantly

Gon: Wha-?

I cut him off before he could say anything, I just needed him to know so he could stop asking and I could just tell him since he doesn't need to keep going with our friendship if he doesn't like that I'm poor

Y/N: I don't have money...I'M SORRY!

I didn't want to lose my first friend but I knew that it wasn't going to be a good idea to keep him since I shouldn't get attached to someone I'm going to lose anyway. I don't have status and money which is what this school is made from, I should have known I wasn't going to be liked for being poor

Gon: I'm sorry I didn't know-

I knew he wasn't going to like me for not having money. He is even apologizing, maybe it's because he feels sorry that he was wasting time with someone like me. If he leaves to bully me I'm going to be ok with that since at least I know he helped me for the little time I was hurt. But I guess I should go back to being a loser and a loner, He's shallow for giving me help if all he wanted was the money I don't have. I should've known, I don't deserve to have friends anyway, especially from this hell of a school

Gon: It doesn't matter I was planning on paying anyway so don't worry

He said with a smile and I couldn't help but feel like what he was saying was true and that he really wanted to be my friend

Y/N: Oh but I don't want to use your money so it's fine

I didn't want him to use his money because if he gets to comfortable using his money on me he'll use money and I don't want to use it or I'll feel bad for him wasting it on me. I don't want him to see me as someone who is going to use him for his money either, I can't handle being told things since it doesn't help my reputation and self esteem

Gon: This is in celebration of our friendship and don't worry it's my treat!

Y/N: You don't need to use your money on me

Gon: I know but I want too

Y/N: We can do something else that doesn't cause you too use your money

Gon: Well ok but let me call Killua

I still don't know who Killua is and why Gon likes him. Maybe they're friends or something. I shouldn't think to much of it since there is nothing that's going to happen. Me meeting someone named Killua? I guess if he doesn't like me in the end we don't have to talk or anything, I mean I'm friends with Gon now, so much doesn't bother him unlike me