[=] maybe?

There's no point coming back here.

I needed to get this off my chest and my mind because it's been taking a toll on me recently. Here's what happened:
          
          Around a month ago, I posted a car design I felt proud of making in NFS Heat on the media channel of a Discord server. The reactions I got from that car got me in a one-on-five scenario - and I was the main victim.
          
          The individuals would harass me by making 'memes' about me that aren't funny at all (they made the 'everyone hates vervid' meme), regarding my musical works as garbage, and worst of all, categorising me to pedophiles just for the sole reason for liking anime and its relations - like VTubers and gacha games like Genshin and Honkai for example. 
          
          Hell, they would even use a screenshot (that was VERY out of context) of an offesnive meme that a friend of mine* sent in my old Discord server to support the claim that I am a pedo - even though I'm not. 
          
          I'm going to make this very clear: I really enjoy offensive humor, but I do not support the actions of said individuals or groups.
          
          It got so out of control that I was even encouraged to commit suicide by them. The thing about it is that they were VERY passionate about it - saying how killing myself would greatly benefit society and most of the world's problems would be easily resolved and that kind of stuff. Oh yeah, the mods didn't do anything to resolve the issue, so I left the server.
          
          So long story short, I was harassed out of the server just for a car design I'm proud of in a Need For Speed game and it escalated very quickly.
          
          --
          
          * - We're still good friends to this day, he even apologised to me about the meme he sent when I brought up the situation.

You know the Cassette Girl FNF mod? Yeah, apparently it was based off from a SA victim.

What the hell did I miss out on..?

Hi

As a guy, I find it difficult to express my emotions in fear of being mocked for 'being weak'. In society, guys are treated as humans with no emotion and are always strong in a sense. In reality, we all have feelings and we tend break down whenever we have a difficult time. 
          
          We're not perfect. We're human.

Breakdown of my username:
          
          The name in question: _vervidseeker
          
          First half: vervid- 
          This is my current artist alias minus the exclamation point (as of writing in December 2021), which rooted from 'vervidex'. The name 'vervidex' is a direct reference to a song called 'Fervidex' by Feryquitous.
          
          Second half: -seeker
          Basically a reference to another song I like called 'Aegleseeker' by Frums and Silentroom.

Is it normal to cry in your sleep from thinking about the friends you made in the past and realising they're still with you after all this time? 
          
          Because I did...

Graduation is now done. All my friends and memories will forever be forged in my heart.

So I watched 'That Time I Got Reincarnated As A Slime' and I gotta say... 
          
          This slime is OP!