Karma’s from pluto

Fuck adults
          
          “IF YOU WERE LISTENING I WOULDNT HAVE TO YELL AT YOU”
          
          Kinda of stepdad to his kid and not hats not how that fucking works you ass i dont give a flying fuck if hes not in the shower yet you dont need to yell at him you absolute prick like isjejsks he reminds me of my first stepdad and that is NOT aa good thing. Like no i dont like the kid very much bc he hurt my sister but i would do absolutly everytjing jn my power to protect him 

Im so tired 

Gods i want to cry so bad i thought i was good but noo suddently my trauma is brought up and im breaking down again
          
          Mom text about dead sisters birthday and ii
           Want to fucking stab her thats not how i handle grief especially around people who dont acctuly fucking know me
          
          I went to talk with my sister about it and was like i wish that she didnt act like we had to participate and she snapped at me and said dont be a bitch she was depressed when she died just do this
          
          I know she was delressed so was i. I. Could have stopped it and i didnt and i didnt everhave an adults shoulder to cry on(not like i woild abusive assholses) but no she sent us away to someone we didnt even know me and my siblings and i took care of them not her she left she wasnt there to help them or make sure they acctuly ate. But of course im the dick for wanting to process my grief in my own way i was a child i still am i didnt fucking ask for that. In acting like she didnt beglect and ignore the abuse before tho. Gods she never fucking beleived me and then when the abusers were gone she became one.. and i cant even fucking talk about it to anyone like goddamn. I just want to leave again

I'm a fucking idiot. I finally fixed my phone then I accidentally threw it into a fucking koi pond 

not me being in the fucking hospital at the begining of pride month lol (clarification i was ther for my borther and spent the night)

Literally crying bc school fucking sucks and I forgot my art work on the bus so it prolly got thrown away and it's due today and I don't think it should count for havih all as bc it's artttt it's not like it ACCTUALLY matterssssss but on another not there are so many hor people here

There was this cute ass girl in the hallway and its just like my gay panic went up five notches

OH I GOT GLASSES THEY ARE LITTERALY ADORABLE THEY HAVEITTKE SMALL BEARS ON THE SIDE

SO II GOT THE FUCKING REFERAL F CRBTVTEDXRTC SO IN AROUND THREE MONTHS TIME I CAN BE EVALUATEDD
          
          Oh but also i accidentally mentioned the voices and they gave me a
          Physiatrist bc they prolly think im crazy and ii
          Didnt even mention the hallucinations or anything i see

My parent is coming to pick me up from school soon
          
          Am worried will maybe update after if im not in a downward spiral