33. worth something , apply fic .

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tw :
— suicide , self harm , triggering talk


y/n's pov

staring down at the three new scars on my arms, i fell back against the wall, my exhausted body not being able to hold itself up any longer.

3:12 am was the time, the love of my life sleeping peacefully in our shared bed which would soon only be used by one.

it was over. the pain was over. just a little longer and i'd be done. all the tears, screams, everything would be worth something now.

the tears had stopped a while ago, not being able to produce anymore. the headache had been constant for hours now, this one event in my head the whole day.

the dizziness, the ring in my ear, the other symptoms of blood loss however had just started.

the small smile on my face had just shown as my body slowly slid down the wall and on to the cold tile, eyelids closing.

maybe i was worth something now.


authors note ||
— i know this isn't the usual update , but i'm just letting out my feelings currently. i will be back on track this coming up week hopefully. merry christmas or happy holidays everyone, stay safe and i love you so much !

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