Neverending Nights *Completed*

Split

This life is too much

Yet I can't get enough

To me you fucking lied

The truth I will not be denied.

This weight cannot be lifted

Off of my heart

Nor will it shift

With this life I want to part

I think about it all day

So I can die every night

With nightmarish images to keep at bay

I cannot bear this, try as I might

I'm drowning with every breath I take

Burning with every memory

Don't say you're sorry; it's much too late

Look at me, you cannot deny!

Die as I have

Try as you should

You promised you would; You shan't.

These tears I have shed

Have you're name on them

I've wished I was dead

Myself I have condemned.

Carving my pain onto my skin

Don't worry for me

My casket you shall put me in

You will regret this, you'll see.

It won't even feel like I've gone

I'll be burning in Hell, you'll see

Waiting for you, not for long

Your reputation will be paying

Took my chances

I hurt you so

My heart for you dances

Under the knife; Of a hand that is mine own.

The pain I feel is never-ending

So please take a look at the real me

Of the pain I am concealing

Because it is you I need.

Hate me if you will

But take another hit

My screams are shrill

Because you're in another fit.

Crouch in the corner

With no dignity left

This girl, you used to adore her

It is my heart you have kept.

I pity you, you know?

You've been through a lot too

Your pain is starting to show

It's me you fear to lose.

I pull away

Because part of me still hates you

Try as I may

I fear I may lose you too.

I've seen you cry but once

When you and mom split

I feel so shunned

We were so tight knit.

I hate myself

For all I've done

For all the pain I've dealt

Put a bullet through my brain

Would be the solution anyways

Fate has brought us here

To deal with ourselves

Things are not as they appear

Let's put our hearts on the shelves.

It's a never-ending cycle

That makes me sick

Put me in a shell

Another scar on my arm I'll knick.

What happened to the one I used to know?

The one that made me laugh instead of cry

That is the one I once knew

But that man has already died.

Look into my eyes

What do you see?

Do you see the one that cries

The one that used to be me?

These eyes have shed these tears

Hiding them for years

They are of guilt and pain

And thoughts of sweet death

It's myself I disdain,

Can't this pain fade away?