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𝕍𝕀𝕀𝕀. 𝕌𝕟𝕤𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝔼𝕞𝕚𝕝𝕪

Cas sat behind the piano softly playing a classical piece her mother taught her. It sounded angelic and graceful as her fingers graced the keys. She started going faster as her head started filling with everything. From her unfinished business to Julie, to Felix, to her death until it ended with Julie and Luke during Edge of Great. Tears started to form in her eyes as she kept playing the piano. Thick tears landed on the keys as Cas started breathing heavily while playing the piano harder and faster as the sadness turned into anger. Everything in her life was unfair. From her dying to Caleb, to Julie. She let out a painful cry as she finished the song. She slammed her fist down into the piano as her heart ached and tears streamed down her cheeks. She let out an airy sob before wiping them away and looking straight in front of her. Not a single emotion insight. She turned back to the piano and put out her sheet music.

"Seems like a part of me will always have to lose
Every single time I have to choose
Swore that it felt right, but was I wrong?
Is this where I'm supposed to be at all?
I don't have the answers, not today
It's like nothing makes the questions go away
What I'd give to see
If the grass was greener" She sang softly, not knowing Julie had entered the studio.

"On the other side of all I've had and lost
Would it be enough?
Or would I still be wondering?" She got ready to sing faster and harder with her eyes close. Making it that she didn't see that Julie had walked towards her.

"If I could go back and change the past
Be a little braver than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing?
If I had everything
Would it mean anything to me?" She noticed Julie who smiled softly and sat down next to her. She looked at the sheet music and looked at her for permission to sing the next part.

"Ooh" Cas finished and Julie started.

"Feels like I might have broke the best thing that I had
I said too much to ever take it back
Scared I'll never find something as good
And would I even know it if I could?" Julie sang as Cas played piano, trying not to think of Julie even though she was sitting right next to her.

"From the other side of all I've had and lost
Would it be enough?
Or would I still be wondering?
Or would I still be wondering? Oh" They slowly started singing together.

"If I could go back and change the past
Be a little braver than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?
Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing?
If I had everything
Would it mean anything?" They sang together and while Julie smiled brightly Cas had to hold back her sobs.

"Maybe I should turn around and take the other road
Or maybe I'm just looking for what I already know
I'm just wondering" They sang with Cas going low while Julie went high.

"If I could go back and change the past
Be a little braver than I had
And bet against the odds
Would I still be lost?" Cas sang alone, trying not to cry.
"Even if I woke up in my dreams
Would there still be something I'm missing?
If I had everything
Would it mean anything to me?" They sang together again.

"Would it be enough?
Or would I still be wondering?" Cas finished and removed her hands from the piano.

"Cas... this song is... wow," Julie smiled at her but Cas just looked away. "Hey, is everything okay?" She asked and Cas couldn't hold it anymore.

"No!" She said with tears as she stood up. "Nothing is okay," She said. "I'm dead. I might disappear. The person I like doesn't like me back. So, no. nothing is okay." She rambled with tears.