Heartache

Chapter 4. Lunch with a side of sadness

"Hey, Shoyo...?"

I look back at him. "You wanna help me make lunch? Shoyo?" He said with his manipulative pouty eyes, I could even debate with him. "Of course Tsumu," I say with a smile. He knows what buttons to push to get what he wants out of me. And I let him push them too, I just want him happy. I go to the thermostat and change it to our preferred temperature. Suddenly I feel two cold arms wrap around me from behind and I froze in place. "I-it's really cold, sorry Shoyo. I should've just kept the heat on" he said trying to stay warm by hugging my body. I smile and wrap my arms around his. "It's okay Tsumu, I know you meant well." I look up at him and he looks down at me. "Hey let's make that lunch now eh?" Atsumu gives me a toothy grin and I couldn't help but smile back and nod.

               Atsumu walks to the kitchen with me right behind him, I wonder what we're gonna make. "So Shoyo I was thinking something basic for our lunch, like a sandwich." He said still walking towards the kitchen, I stare at his back admiring how great it looks in that shirt. "Uh.. yeah that sounds great but we also need a fruit, what are you in the mood for there?" I say as we walk into the kitchen and Atsumu goes to the fridge to get the cold cuts. "Hmmm.. peaches sound great right now," Atsumu said grabbing the meat and placing it on the counter. I slap the back of his head "Tsumu! Not just meat grab the other things!" I scolded him cause he always attempts to eat a meat sandwich. He huffed and grabbed the rest of the ingredients and smiled in victory. I go to the sink to properly wash my hands, after washing my hands I grab the peaches from our fruit basket. I absolutely love peaches Atsumu knows that and he thinks he's slick saying he wants it. I wash the peaches in the sink properly, of course, I see in the corner of my eye Atsumu finishing a meat sandwich. I chuck a rag that I found hanging on the cabinet at him. "Put everything else in there!" I say with a little angry face he playfully rolled his eyes as he put everything else in there. Atsumu placed the sandwiches on the table while I placed the peaches on their respective plates. "Shoyo!" I turn my head and see a water bottle flying in my direction, I catch it and look at Atsumu. "I could've died!" I make a little shout and he just laughs. I glare at him and I sit down relaxing into the seat with a satisfied sigh. Atsumu sat near me, I noticed him pulling out his phone. Probably texting that waitress. After finishing my food I noticed I finished before Atsumu, is he okay? "Hey Tsumu, you okay?" He looked up at me and smiled "I'm good, don't worry imma finish.. just typing this last text." I nod and stand up going to the sink to wash my dirty dish of course. After I finish washing the dish I start heading out the kitchen. Not now, why out of all days this week?

I just need some alone time, my heart is hurting bad right now. He's acting differently when she's involved, I can't imagine if they actually start dating. I head to my room my head hanging low, I hate feeling like this. I get to my room after going inside I close my door and lock it in the same move. I lay my back on the door slowly falling to a sitting position, I sometimes get like this. Most of the time I just wait for the episode to end, this one doesn't feel as bad as one of my worst ones. I sit there in the darkness of my room, my curtains are closed making my room dark. The dark is comforting, makes me feel safe at times like these. After a few minutes, I hear a knock on my door. "Hey shoyo, you okay in there?" Atsumu said through the door sounding a bit concerned, I made a little jump at the sound of his voice. "U-uh yeah I'm good, just feeling a bit tired.. yknow after eating that food.." I struggled trying not to show the pain in my voice. "Then why do you sound like you're sitting in front of the door!?" Atsumu said seeming to see through my lies, I quickly get up and rush to my bed. "Cause I ran to the door when I heard the knocking." I try to come up with good lies off the top of my head. I could hear Atsumu sighing and he knocked on the door again "let me in, you're in the dark... I'm not dumb Shoyo." Atsumu said in a bit of an annoying voice. I sigh as I get out of the bed and go towards the door unlocking it. As soon as I unlocked it Atsumu opened the door and turned on the light in the same motion. "What's going on shoyo? Why are you sitting in the dark?" Atsumu asked staring at me studying everything on my body. "I-.." I couldn't even get a single word out before he hugged me and said "you were crying, weren't you? Your eyes are puffy." I froze, was I that obvious? I thought wiping the tears would've been enough. Atsumu was rubbing my back and said. "You don't think I know... But I know you have these moments Shoyo." I froze. Did he know? Was I that obvious about that too? I always try to hide this cause it will affect him and not in a good way. "Shoyo what set you off? Are you okay?" Atsumu pushed us closer to one another, I could feel us shifting. I didn't care, the achy feeling just hurt so bad And I wanted to get rid of it. I suddenly feel something warm and wet running down my cheeks. I'm crying, I grip onto his shirt extremely hard. My heart still hurts so much, but he's holding me so close so the butterflies in my stomach are going crazy. Why did I have to fall so hard I should've kept myself in check before my feelings got this strong.

                  After a few minutes of me just crying I feel a vibration come from atsumu's pocket. Must be that waitress, I've already wasted enough of his time. "You should get that Tsumu," I say with a hard sniffle at the end, he pulls away and gives me a serious look. "Only if you're okay, bros before hoes.. don't you forget" I laugh a little. "Only you could say something like that with a serious face" I smiled back at him he only chuckled "I'll take it that you're feeling a bit better now?" He said with a slight smile on his face, I nod. He left the room to attend to the text message he had received. Despite what most people would think I actually don't stay sad very long, it's usually around ten to fifteen minutes then I calm down. But when it's severe it's an hour of pure sadness, nothing else goes through my mind and it's not fun. For once I'm glad Atsumu interfered, I don't think I would've gotten through that as fast as I did. I just realized he had me in his lap when he was comforting me, I was just so sad I didn't realize until now. I could feel my cheeks get extremely red covering my face when I also realize I was moving a lot while crying. He probably thinks I'm annoying, ugh.

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Hey, guys, it's the ending of the chapter, for now, I know these chapters feel way too short but I don't want to put too much in one chapter hopefully it isn't too much. See you in the next one!