Heartache

Chapter 17. The Truth

"I love you Shoyo"

I stand there in shock, did he just say what I think he just said? Did he just say he loves me? "Tsumu... I...love you too..." I say looking away with my face on fire. he grabs my chin and turns me to face him. "Do you mean that Shoyo?" I tense up at the thought, he doesn't believe me? "Why would I ever lie about that Tsumu? I love that thought of being with you." I say wrapping my arms around his neck, earning me one of his perfect smiles. "I love you Shoyo... I love you!" Atsumu picked me up by my hips and spin in a circle repeated those words multiple times. I sit there blushing as he's spinning me around. After a few more seconds he finally put me down. "The real question is... do you mean that?" I say blushing heavily and he seemed shocked by my words, why? He grabbed my hands and smiled at me. "Shoyo... I've had these really confusing feelings towards you... nothing that I've ever felt for a guy... I pushed it away as if I was just loving your presence as a friend. But I couldn't understand why I loved your presence as much as I did" Atsumu seemed to be pouring his heart out to me, I love when he's expressing his emotions to me. "When I said I wish you were a girl, I wanted these feelings for you to be more understandable. Liking other men is usually disliked, so I thought I could never.. you changed that Shoyo." He was staring into my eyes, I could feel loved and comforted just by staring into them. "Tsumu... I never knew about this.. I've liked you for the longest time Tsumu, I never knew you'd ever like me back" I start tearing up, he places his hand on my cheek and wiped it with his thumb. "Shoyo, I couldn't get the thought of losing you out of my head... if Osamu took you I wouldn't have even known what to do." He's staring into my eyes this time.

I blush heavily and I remember the fact that Kenma is waiting for me. "Tsumu, did you wanna walk home... Kenma is still waiting for me in his car." He blinked in surprise at the sudden question that literally killed the mood. But he nodded "Yeah, I wanna make it up to you... I know you must've gone crazy looking for me," he says and I grab his hand walking towards Kenma's car. After making it to Kenma's car I could see Kuroo in the driver's seat on top of Kenma, I blush a little bit. "Looks like they're a bit busy... I'll just text Kenma and tell him you have me now," I said while slowly backing away from the car and Atsumu nodded, I'm pretty sure he saw it too. I grab Atsumu's hand to hold it, he grabbed it back almost instantly. I blush a little bit never even thinking about letting it go. "I wanna walk you home.. is that okay?" Atsumu said gripping my hand a bit tighter, I give him a big smile with a nod. He smiles back at me and starts pulling me in the direction he wants, I follow with no hesitation. I pull out my phone with my other hand and text Kenma I'm gonna be fine.

After a few minutes of walking with Atsumu we stopped in front of a house I've never seen before, what is he doing? "I'm gonna talk to him okay? I trust you Shoyo, he must've wanted to talk to me." I could tell he wasn't happy to say that, it seemed he felt bad for hurting his brother. I let go of his hand, I feel cold when I did. I place my hand on his shoulder and gave him a reassuring smile, he smiles back, and he knocks on the door. After about thirty seconds the door was going open revealing an uninterested Osamu. He looked at Atsumu then towards me, I looked away from him and he sighed. "Are you able to talk now? Tsumu?" Osamu said with a lot of sass in his tone, I wanted to smack him. Atsumu nodded and Osamu let us in closing the door behind us. "Are you guys thirsty? I'll gladly get you guys some water." We both shook our heads and he nodded walking to what I would assume is his living room. He motioned his hands towards the couch so I and Atsumu sat on it right next to each other. Osamu sat in a chair near the couch we were sitting on. "Let's just get right to it... Tsumu, why would you not tell me you thought I was taking your friends?" I could feel Atsumu tense up, I grabbed his hand to hold it in a position where Osamu couldn't see. Atsumu seemed to calm down a little bit, I nudge him to answer Osamu. "What do you mean? Osamu every single friend you took told me they like you more than me.. they said I was annoying and clingy." I could feel Atsumu's grip on my hand get tighter as he talked, I feel so bad for him. "Tsumu... I never knew they said those things about you, we used to be close. We used to tell each other everything, why wouldn't you tell me they said stuff like that" Osamu said as he went from the laying back position to sit foreword. "I didn't think you would care, yknow back in those days we would argue over the tiniest things.." I could feel Atsumu's hand soften around mine, he must've noticed how hard he was gripping mine. "Of course we argued over stupid stuff, but this was important Tsumu.. I'll make sure to talk to Suna about this." Osamu gave Atsumu a very serious expression, I got chills from it. "You don't understand, they liked you cause you were cooler... I was just an annoying and clingy friend.. you took them because you just wanna be better than me at something... you got it... I only have one person that's close to me" I see Atsumu lower his head in disappointment, I decided to join the conversation. "Tsumu, you're overthinking the situation again, your friends were the ones in the wrong here.. not Osamu." He lifted his head and turned towards me, he looked so heartbroken. "How so Shoyo? Osamu took them away from me." He asked me calmly, I'm happy he's learning to keep his composure. "Osamu said it Tsumu, your friends came to him saying they basically weren't really your friends... Osamu never knew Tsumu.." I said and Atsumu stared at me in confusion thinking about what I said. "S-so Osamu was lied to by my friends.. they never liked me from the start?" He asked and I nodded slowly feeling really bad. He looked away from me and just stared into space, he was thinking really hard. I look towards Osamu and he looked towards me, we both shrugged at each other and waited for Atsumu.

"Osamu..."

 Osamu and I both look at Atsumu, what is he gonna do? "I'm sorry... I understand now..." Atsumu looked to the floor, I could see something hit the floor below him. He was crying. I wrap my arm around his waist and pull him close to me laying my head on his shoulder. "Hey Tsumu, it's okay.. there's no need to cry." I tried to calm him but his silent cries kept going. Osamu ended up joining the hug, both of us now hugging Atsumu to cheer him up. "T-they never liked me... am I really that bad?" He said between his silent crying, Atsumu has been a lot more emotional than usual. Not that I'm complaining tho, I love hearing about what's on his mind. After sitting there hugging for like five minutes he finally asked us to get off, and we did. "Tsumu... are you still mad at me? I really wanna make it up to you." Osamu said with a sympathetic look on his face. All Atsumu did was shake his head no, it looks like he doesn't want to say anymore. Atsumu stood up and said bathroom and walked away. I look towards Osamu "Thank you for talking with him Osamu, you're a good brother." I say to Osamu with a big smile earning a smile back.

He got on his knees and bowed "Will you ever forgive me for causing so much trouble today!?" I could hear him ask, I back up a little surprised by the action. "It's okay Osamu, I-it worked out in the end.. no need to worry." He looked up towards me. "I'm glad... I thought you hated me when you started yelling at me." I laugh a little a bit embarrassed he brought that backup. "It's okay I don't hate you, I just disliked what you did..." he finally stood back up. "Hinata, did you ever think about... me and you... I know you're probably still mad about what I did to you too. But my feelings can't seem to go away so easily" Osamu seemed desperate as he spoke, I felt really bad for him. "I'm sorry Osamu, I already have my eyes on someone.."I looked down not wanting to look at him "it's Tsumu isn't it." He said it more like a statement than a question. 

"Yes... It is."

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Hello reader! Thanks for reading this chapter. I hope you liked it. How do you think Atsumu is holding up after the news? Found out what they do in the next chapter. See you then!