Hysterical letters to my sanity

parental discretion is advised

it happens in the movies like a well thought out dream
mothers cover children's eyes but little do they know that we've seen it all before
profanity, sexuality, violence and drug use get stitched into hallmark greeting cards
profanity my brother curses so much he might as well be speaking the language of men on street corners
of men in those violent movies and video games
sexuality, when i was 13 my best friend cried about the boy who plunged his hand up her shirt, i thought i can only imagine the horror until a boy I've known since 4th grade thought to have his hand shoved down my pants
you can only see this stuff in the movies
violence in third grade i watched seventh graders crush a poor boys head into the ground and the first monday back in eighth grade a girl got her hair ripped out in the parking lot
I've seen track marks on fifteen year olds who sit in my home room,
there's no white substance besides the one that's snorted in bathrooms and hidden in make up bags of fourteen year olds
the drug dealers that hang out in your backyard just finished seventh grade
you only see this shit in the movies and that's why there's warnings
parental discretion is advised but little do the rated r movies know my mother and father showed me these films laid out in scripture violence was a daily in yelling and screaming about the damn dishes and when my brother doesn't wanna get up for school it's cause of the movies he watches that kept him up with nightmares not the little horned boys who call him a fag for his favourite hair style
the monsters don't live in closets or under the bed they live in our bodies and feed off our lives
the monsters are there inhaling the goods when you're so fucked up in the middle of the night that you can't fall asleep and you go to school the next day with your teeth still chattering
with your tongue wired to the top of your mouth and little white bricks dissolving on the base.
explicit content, explicit context
profanity is the language of the youth full call me naive for thinking the girl who got raped isn't a slut
sorry that her skirt wasn't long enough to say no
and when i teach my children about violence and drugs and sex on tv they shall see it all around them
eating disorders hidden in the perfect little body, breaking bones and barely beeping hearts
razor blades instead of teeth but surly blood still runs
when black males must hold there hands up before exiting the car at night makes me wonder why white males pockets feel so deep
i've never been catcalled without an insult following my silence
there's are stories written in caves about the kid who over dosed on fucking laced vape juice
you say that it's far too mature but i've watched sixteen year old kids try to rip their heart out through their wrists and say sorry for all the mess they've made and that's pretty fucking mature to me
warning mature content but what you guys don't know is that the warnings labels live in pill bottles, whiskey swallowed and children left as forgotten gravestones
do not hold your tongue at the sign of early aging as it is not a scene to perfect
please don't sugar coat what i've already seen sour should not be mistaken for sweet
who can call themselves a hero for simply not speaking
how can you simply not speak when it's all around
god i'm so lucky i wasn't allowed to watch movies;
only the real life gritty stuff can be seen