"I said that to him, right? Keep your words, Yeonjun."
The grim reaper confused with himself, again. Why, just why couldn't he be selfish to Soobin? Why he had to say that to the boy?
Yesterday, when they were talking about the mission and punishment, Yeonjun said to Soobin that he didn't care about the mission and punishment anymore. Who did he lie to, really? He still cared with his mission, but not going to lie, he was doubting about the punishment. What he told to Soobin yesterday about the punishment wasn't a lie, though.
Yeonjun felt like he was attached to Soobin more after the boy could see him. The more they talked, the more they knew each other. Their perspective about each other had changed, especially Soobin to him.
But, Yeonjun's perspective about Soobin not really changed much. Since the begining of his guiding of Soobin, two years ago, he felt...different. His soul just so pure, it was just the world that too cruel to him. He didn't do bad, Soobin was a good boy, a good soul, but with poor fate. That's why his aura didn't maintain much when Soobin did suicide and it made him failed.
Yeonjun didn't really complain about Soobin could see him, it was the opposite. He just felt glad, after that sickening life, finally, he could talk to someone who had the same struggle as him, though it happened when he already became a grim reaper it still felt great.
But again, Yeonjun's perspective about Soobin not really changed much, still, it had changed.
You see, when the first time they saw each other, Yeonjun was just...rude? That's just how he talk to everyone.
But to Soobin, that's different now.
Now? Yes, after those two weeks, maybe we could say, he kinda developing feelings to the boy.
The grim reaper could have feelings? Just as Yeonjun stated before, God just took his needs, but had nothing to do with his emotions, and feelings. That's why the grim reaper became a mission, because your feelings and emotions could affected the result.
But the Choi Yeonjun we knew here was just too denial with his feelings. He won't admit that he had feelings to Soobin.
Then he thought about the main reason to why he did all of this, he wanted to go to nirvana. That's what every living creatures yearning for after their life, right? It's the final destination we wanted to arrive to?
But, no, Yeonjun could see that blurry, he couldn't think about the nirvana as clear as before, not too confident that he could go there in the end of that. He could sense it, he didn't know why.
Soobin was happy now, and he had no intention to ruin that even slightly.
But, if he knew the chance for him to go to nirvana almost impossible, then, what about the punishment? What is the punishment will he get from failing the mission?
"Hey, Yeonjun."
Soobin's voice came out from the walk-in closet, snapped him out from his thought. He, as usual, sat at the couch at the left side of the bed, the walk-in closet accross him.
Yeonjun hummed as response to that.
"You said you will pick my clothes for the rest of my life. Come here, I don't know what to pick for today," the boy shouted from there, the door to walk-in closet slightly opened.
Yeonjun walked slowly into the closet, "I thought you didn't like my pick of clothing," he said bluntly. Soobin did say that before to him, too much he said.
"I don't like the flashy and weird clothing, but I can tolerate your casual pick, it suits me."
Soobin said that mumbling and looked away, like embarrassed or something like that.
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The Grim Reaper | Yeonbin
FanfictionWhat if Yeonjun, one of the grim reaper who was yearning for nirvana, got troubled by one certain human named Soobin, the human who wanted to end his life, stuck and always failed on his suicide attempt. They could solve their problems and got their...