𝘱 𝘶 𝘭 𝘤 𝘩 𝘳 𝗂 𝘵 𝗎 𝘥 𝘪 𝘯 𝘰 𝗎𝗌

2

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'I want you and I know you want me too'
I sang the new song of hachung
( A/n: lol )
Dream of you while fixing the books
I'm at the library this was my punishment
For  destroying the window of
classroom A3-1
His classroom.

I mean we were playing baseball at the left wing where his classroom designated
And I saw him looking at us playing baseball then I losed focus and throwed the ball to their damn window.
Because he was too beautiful.
could you blame me tho?

I got scolded infront of everybody
I don't mind but he was there
The kim seokjin was there.
I felt conscious about myself
What would he think of me?
He must think I'm stupid , a fvckn idiot.
Ugh , way to embarrass myself in front of my crush.

then something hit me, i scoffed

silly me for thinking he
would pay attention on
a simple girl like me.

I  mean i ain't complaining about this
punishment though , id rather do this than clean the comfort rooms but still
i cant help but frown at the stupidity i did
i seriously need to compose myself.

but somehow im happy cause

I love it , I love this.

I love books , being here is relaxing
The SILENCE is comfortable
the smell of the old books
makes me feel calm.
everything about this makes me smile.

While pushing the cart I can't help but giggle , it's fun .

no one's gonna scold me anyway
The librarian is gone.
and its past six already.
no ones gonna hear me.

I looked around while finding the aisle for the next batch of books.
Trailing my hands to the vintage books
Looking at it fondly,
While pushing the cart in one hand.

I looked up and then I stopped .
Across the shelves I saw you
Smiling.

I can't help but smile too, while the butterflies in my stomach become a
Whole damn zoo.

why are you here? Are you here for me?

But then I saw you texting on your phone
my smile disappeared.

'dumbass why would you think of that.
you delusional btch.'

The way your smiling i know it's her
I can't be wrong
I heard she's your childhood best friend
Students on this University ship you two.

I mean you two looked good together
Can't blame them
she's a goddess and your pulchritudinous.

While me? I look like a motherfckn hippo-potato.

(A/n: then what am I then am I not human anymore? 😭)

i want to be the reason of your smile too
But im a coward
to even talk to you, or to even say hi.

i shouldnt be hurt ,
cause you and i doesnt exist.

I shouldnt act like this cause im not
your girlfriend .
...

But fvck you , fvck you KIM SEOKJIN

What did you do to me?
What spell did you use for me to be
enchanted like this.

I hate you,

I hate you for making me feel this way

I hate myself for falling for you.
I hate that Ive fallen deeper
before I can stop it.

i hate you

I hate that I love you.

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ʸᵉᵃʰ ʸᵉᵃʰ ⁱ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ⁱᵗˢ ᶜʳᵃᵖᵖʸ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵘⁿᵖᵒᵉᵗⁱᶜ
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