Obsession

"Run Rabbit Run"

The sun glistened through the wet window, hitting my face, it's a pretty day outside, A nice day to play, maybe I'll see her again, she was super nice to me, but her friend. She makes me angry, she's gonna steal Nathalie from me, Nathalie's mine, ONLY mine.

I sit up from my bed and walk towards the wall, the pictures of her all over, her pretty hair, the bright red streak, as red as the stuff that poured from the pig when grandpa cut him. I put my finger on her face and stroke it slowly, one day I will be able to do it to her actual face, not just a picture. I can't wait to feel her porcelain face against my hand, I want her...I want her so bad.

I walk over to the window that faces hers and I look, she's talking, but she seems angry, she's throwing her fist around, her hair seems quite messy, I've never seen her like that before. And then the pink haired one came into view, of course..Of course she made my dearest Nathalie mad. I hate her..Oh I hate her so much I could just rip her throat out and make her eat it, I watched as the pink lady left, stomping her feet and slamming the door.

I look back at Nathalie, she no longer looked angry, she looked..sad? she slid down the wall and put her head in her hands. Oh no, my poor Nathalie, I need to comfort her.

I walked into the bathroom and looked at the mirror, I look like a mess, Why had I let myself get this way. "You scare her", my reflection spoke, "What do you mean?", "The way you act, you act like a toddler..fix it", I do act like a child don't I? I need to be normal. She will like me like that, I licked my hands and slicked back my hair, "I'd get better clothing too if I were you..Oh wait, I am you", The reflection cackled. 

I walked into the clothing store and looked around, "What do normal people wear?", I walked over to the men's section and looked around, some of these shirts with the words look stupid, why would people wear that garbage? I finally find some clothing that looks a little better and went to the register. I pull out all of the money I had and give it to the lady, I really need to get more money, I guess that means I need a job. 

When I get home I put all of my new clothes in the closet, I look back at the mirror, my reflection looked proud, "Now all you need to do is act like a man, not a little boy", "how do I do that?", my reflection pointed towards the t.v "The people on the screen will teach you". I sat down on my bed and pulled out my remote, I clicked through a lot of movies and shows until I found one that looked interesting it was titled, "YOU", I clicked on the first episode and began to watch.

Why do I act the way I do? why was I so childish? was it how grandpa raised me?

Flashback

"NO NO NO LET ME GO", I wailed, my grandpa didn't listen, he just kept dragging me to the car, I don't want to leave mommy and daddy. "Gabriel Agreste you're eleven fucking years old stop acting like a toddler", he grumbled shoving me in the car, I crawled to the window and looked out, Mommy and Daddy had these weird metal things on their wrists, these men in blue were pulling them away. They look so angry, why do they look so angry? I looked back at grandpa, his cold stone eyes would look at me and then the road, grandpa is kind of scary, he had a big grey beard, dark bags under his eyes, he also had no hair on his head. I Don't want to live with him, I want to be with mommy and daddy, but grandpa says they are bad people, I don't believe him.

Present day

I put on my shoes and look in the mirror, I was wearing a plain black shirt and jeans, "Good job, you look normal again", I smile and walk down the stairs, my living room looks so old and run down, I don't like it, I want to change it, when I get more money I will. I will make my house look normal, normal like Nathalie's, Nathalie's normal, I should be more like her.

I stepped outside and took in the fresh air, It's very nice out, very cloudy, just how I like it. I look over at Nathalie's house, she's walking to her car, I have to catch her before she leaves. I began to run towards her, I want to talk to her, normally this time.

"Nathalie!", I stop when I'm close enough for her to see me, "Oh hey Gabriel, how are you?", She's smiling but I know she isn't happy, her eyes show she is upset, "I wanted to apologize for the other night, that wasn't very normal of me, and I understand if I frightened you", she went silent a bit, almost as if she was examining me, "It's alright, just no more showing up at my house in the middle of the night alright?", I nodded. "Oh I happened to notice you and your friend having a quite heated conversation, is everything alright between you two", she looked down, "Yeah, it's normal for friends to fight, I'm pretty sure we'll talk again soon", there was some awkward silence, I patted her on the shoulder, "Well uh I should probably get going, it was nice talking to you" she waves and get into her car. I walked away silently celebrating, I had finally had a normal conversation, it was so easy, maybe being normal isn't so hard after all.

I walked into the woods, the leaves and branches crunching under my feet, The woods are so nice, I walked through them all the time when I was younger, I start feeling that one feeling, what was it called Oh yeah! Nostalgia. The smell of tree sap brings back so many memories, good memories of me running around trying to catch the bunnies, which makes me feel this desire. That desire I haven't felt since...her. 

Suddenly I heard some rustling from the bushes, I look over and see a rabbit staring back at me, My heart started pumping faster and faster, I reach into my pocket and pull out my pocket knife that I take with me everywhere. I start walking closer to it, but then it starts running off, I can't let it get away so I start running after it.

Run Rabbit

Run

Run 

Run

"LEAVE ME ALONE GABRIEL PLEASE"

Run Rabbit

Run

Run

Run

I finally grab it's ears and yank it towards me, "I got you little rabbit", You aren't going anywhere, I sit down on the dirt and lay it down on it's back, I place my knife on it's chest, I look at it's beedy little eyes staring at me, it was so helpless. 

No

What am I doing? The rabbit did nothing wrong, why am I doing this? It's innocent..It doesn't deserve this, but someone does, that's why I'm doing this, there's someone I want to hurt but can't, so I'm doing it to a helpless rabbit. I let go of it's ears and watch it run away, I stand up and look at the knife in my hands. There's someone I need to get rid of, the woman that hurt my dearest Nathalie...

The one with the pink hair

Ay, Guess who's back, sorry I've been gone for so long, I hope you like this new chapter