Unexpected

Chapter 15: The Truth

⚠️ Trigger warning ⚠️
⚠️Rape and self harm⚠️
⚠️Please skip this chapter if these things trigger you⚠️

After about 15 minutes of running I broke down. We were in the middle of Manhattan and I was bawling my eyes out. I stop and head towards a wall, I sit against it.

"y/n, what's wrong?"

I say nothing, I can't speak, I can't stop crying.

"Come on love breath, in, out"

I do exactly as he says as he slides down next to me.

"Now, why are you still crying?" He asks wiping away my tears with his thumb.

"I-I... I can't bare to see him. It hurts me." I sob.

"Shhh it's ok, it's over now, he's gone." He pulls me in tight and holds me close. "It'll be alright, everything has changed."

After about 10 minutes of sitting there sobbing, I had finally calmed down enough to have a real conversation with Ron.

"Baby?" I say trying to get his attention.

"Yes sweetheart?" He says kissing me on the forehead.

"You know I love you, right?" I sigh.

"Oh course I know that."

"And that nothing Liam said was true."

"Of course, I never would've believed it." He strokes my hair. "Did you love him?" He asks me.

"Uhm... I don't know." I reply

"What do you mean you don't know?"

"Well I feel like the entire relationship was forced on me. Everyone wanted us together, I knew he loved me, so I forced myself to love him. But I didn't love him, I've never loved anyone before you."

Ron plants a kiss on my cheek as we go silent again. We can only hear yelling, cars zooming past, and hanging coming from those cars.

"Why are these people so rude, like wait 5 seconds will you, they're people too!" Ron says with sass.

I chuckle, "you really don't understand New York do you?"

Ron laughs "No, honestly, I really don't." We laugh together for a while. Then silence again.

"Is Liam like the Draco of Ilvermorny?" Ron asks me.

"Not exactly, he's more like the Blaise. He's part of the hell at the school but not completely."

"Do you guys have someone like Draco?"

"Yeah we do, his names Chris, did I ever tell you about him?"

"Not that I remember."
"Oh, well I try and block him out of my life. He's worse than Liam and he really hurt me."

"Worse than Liam?"

"Yes, worse than Liam."

"What did he do? I'll kill him!" Ron exclaims.

"Well where do I start.  He hurt me mentally and physically. He'd throw shit at me during class, pull my hair, stuff like that. But that was just first and second year. Everything went downhill in third."

"What happened?" Ron asks. "Well.. if it's hard to talk about you don't have to tell me."

"No, I want to, it helps to talk about it." I resume. "The summer before third year I had grown in... erm.... places."

"Your tits grew?" Ron asks.

"Yeah sure if you want to put it straight forward!" I giggle slapping his hand. The smile quickly leaves my face as I begin to get serious.

"We were both on the quidditch team, along with Liam and many other guys. One time I went into the locker room after we played them and Chris followed me in. He'd call me things like sexy and irresistible."

"Well, you are, but you're beautiful" Ron adds.

"Thank you Ronald but while you were off trying to save Buckbeak I was trying to save myself. Chris wouldn't leave me alone while I was trying to get changed to I just turned away and changed. I could feel his presence getting closer and I froze. His arms came around me and he put both of his hands on my chest."

"HE DID WHAT?" Ron yelled "IM SERIOUSLY GONNA KILL THIS GUY! He didn't ask for consent or anything?? American boys suck!"

I began "This went on for the next few weeks but it kept getting worse to the point where he was making me touch things I didn't want to. I finally got up the courage the courage and told my headmaster. After that things got worse for me. Chris, and his friends because calling me a slut and saying how ugly my body was and things like that."

"What did Liam say?"

"Nothing, for the next year he was nothing but kind, it seemed as though he was the only boy left who hasn't hurt me in some way. But before he could start talking to me I cut in my stretch marks until they'd bleed everywhere."

Ron gasps.

"What? Have you not noticed the marks in my thighs?"

"Darling I love your body so much I thought they were just stretch marks."

"No, they're stretches with self harm scars in them. Once Liam and I started talking I was happy again, he was a great friend. But I wanted him to just be my friend. Nothing more. But he insisted and after months of him asking I finally said yes and we went out for a while. When he started to want to do things in the bed with me I'd refuse. I finally broke up with him because I was fed up with his ways."

"I thought you broke up with him because you had to move in with me."

"No, that's what I told him, but it wasn't true. That's also what I told myself. I tried blocking out all of the bad stuff, which is why I didn't tell you what really happened. I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth."

"Don't be sorry y/n, I understand it was hard for you to talk about especially since you didn't really know me then."

"Thank you for being so understanding Ron,"

"Of course y/n, there's nothing I wouldn't do for you, I love you.

"I love you too." I say back to him. We kiss for a while.

Once we separated Ron says, "let's go get something to eat, then we can explore." He gives me a soft smile and we're off into the city.

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I feel like this is the most emotional chapter for y/n so far but I think it's nice to see this side of them. This chapter was really heartfelt for me because of my experience with self harm and everything and if you are or were dealing with anything like it just know that you aren't alone and that there are people like you. And if anything happens just know you are loved even if you don't feel it right now. No matter how alone you feel just remember, you're not.🥰