I'm Her Anonymous

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I couldn't help but watch as the time passes by quickly.

I was in my last class for today, waiting for the bell to ring.

Though I was shaking uncontrollably. My leg bouncing up and down. 

I can feel my heart pounding fast. I couldn't concentrate.

My eyes stayed looking down towards my desk, not wanting any attention.

I hope no one notices. 

Yesterday, I saw Octavia take the envelope and look at it for a moment as she puts it gently in-between a book.

That must be a good sign, right?

She didn't throw it away, or at least, not at that moment. I hope she didn't.

~r i n g~

My head shot up as the bell rang.

Finally.

Once again, I stayed behind until everyone left. Even the teacher.

I looked at how everyone rushed through the door to leave. So eager to get out of this place.

Eager to go out and do what they love.

Is that how I feel about Octavia? Eager?

Eager to know more about her. Eager to be her friend. Eager to make her happy.

Eager to....

love her?

I don't know how she did this to me. To be attracted to her, not just by her beauty but also, her person. How is this possible? 

I've never felt this way before.

So, why now?

I wonder.

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I truly didn't want to get caught. That would be embarrassing for me.

Finally getting out of my train of thought, I walked over to my locker to get my belongings.

I take out the special baby-blue envelope and went over to slide it into Octavia's locker.

Hoping she read the first, I also hope that she'll read this one, too.

As soon as the envelope went through fully, I paced out of the school as fast as possible and started walking back to my apartment.

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I don't know why I want to love someone.

I've never fully trusted anybody, especially what happened to my parents.

I can't afford to risk people getting hurt because of me.

I don't want to be left behind again.

Yet, for some reason, she's suddenly someone I want to be with.

Confessing my love for her through letters is nothing to be shameful of but, I am afraid of becoming close to her.

If I don't, she won't be in danger, nothing will harm her.

As long as I don't have any direct contact with her.

Everything will be fine.

It's kinda creepy but, love makes everyone a little bit insane?

Don't you agree?