Secrets kept from therapists

its fucking cold

"SEASONAL DEPRESSION"

the summer used to be so warm,

we would cool off with
cold water,
because the warmth of us
was so much hotter.

and when summer
nights brung a chilly breeze,
you were there with a light blanket,
and a campfire.

but now the winter is cold.

so i use hot cocoa,
that i don't even like,
to warm me up,

and the light of the fireplace
to remind me of how
you left when the
cold air hit.

because without you,
everything that was once
warm,
is now cold.
-L

"DAMP SANDS"

you treat me like sand.

I feel like the cold,
damp sand on the beach,
on early mornings,
after a storm.

it's so soft, and calming.
something you have never felt before.

but then the afternoon comes.
and the sun beats down on the sand,
causing it to burn up.

now you hate the sand.
the sand is so annoying now.

now you run across it, trying to get away,
because it burns your feet.

why can't the sand stay cool?
-L

"WRONGS"
you told me about your dad.

i told you about the harm,
and people who wronged me.

but now it seems that it's
to hard for you to call,

or even text back.-L

"SUNSETS"

to me,
you were a sunrise,
you made everything that
was once dark, light again.

but to you,
i was a sunset,
making everything dark,
that was once light. -L

"HEART OF GLASS"
my heart was made
of glass,

and you fucked around like
a little kid and
broke it.

you left me to fix it,
but when i tried to pick
it up, it cut my finger.

so i let it just sit on the floor,
cause no one bothers to pick it up.
-L

"MY MISSING RAINBOW"

you were my rainbow,

after the biggest storms,

but now your gone.

so now i look for rainbows

in other people,

but everyone just seems

to be washed out colors.

some are even in black & white.
-L