On Repeat [ryeji]

Chapter 7: Always In My Head

Ryujin's POV

It's been two weeks since I bumped into Yeji. Everytime there's training with the dance team, I try my best my to avoid her.

Well simply because...... I really don't know how to act well around her.

Obviously she must have heard the rumors about me being this cold-hearted and blank faced all the time. That's true indeed but it's not like I have this mask on just to be like those cliche type of school girls who are the same as me just to gain more attention. I hate how some people judge me because I have this kind of attitude and that's why I honestly still keep wearing this mask of mine because I'm scared to open up and show my true self knowing that others can easily betray me behind my back.

Also, one main factor is the fact that I'm a big introvert. I was never really good at socializing others. Others would always say that I became like this because of my parents and that's true once again. I saw how they're always like this when it comes to meeting people or strangers as what they always say. It's not like they didn't raised me well, a proof of that is Yuna as you can see. She's the opposite of us three and that's what makes her even more special. She's this sunshine and warmth that we love to embrace all the time. She's such a softie and a cute big baby, that's why everyone loves her. A walking vitamin indeed. Going back to me, I guess it was my choice to close myself to people, only my parents, Yuna and Chaeryeong really knows me well.

My thoughts were stopped when the two appeared in front of me after buying food. "Are you satisfied now, Yuna?"

"Yes unnie, thanks for treating us both. As expected you're such a softie when it comes to us" Yuna replied

"What do you expect Yuna, she became softer when she started liking Yeji" Chaeryeong chuckled and teased

"You're right unnie, I can't believe how powerful Yeji unnie's effect is to this old Shin" Yuna joined in teasing

"Oh shut up both of you. Continue teasing me and I won't treat you again"

Yuna sighed and replied, "I don't know what to with you anymore unnie. You're such a bipolar at times"

"Yeah Ryu, even with the dance team. It's either you're in your usual self but it's lesser you know or you're actually interacting with the others and smile even for a little bit" Chae said

"Oh how whipped you are Shin Ryujin" The two replied at the same time and high-fived each other while smiling widely like what they always do when they're thinking the same about things.

Oh what do I do with these two, it's not as if they aren't whipped for each other too. These two oblivious idiots.

"Yah you two are like with each other too you know, seriously how can both of you be this dumb and oblivious?"

"What are you saying?" They replied

"Are you kidding me? You both really don't know?!" I didn't realized I raised my voice a little bit not until I saw others staring

"Yah why are you even frustrated?"

"Oh nothing, god let's just go. You both are stressing me out"

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It's the last period before lunch time and honestly I'm too bored and hungry to care and listen.

I was just staring at the window thinking about what can actually happen if I get close with Yeji. Different scenarios form in my head that are likely or not to happen and I can't imagine it happening without me probably fucking up or something. There's just really times that I say words without filter and without thinking about it, not realizing I hurt the person. This is why I want to change and slowly remove this mask of mine, sometimes even if it can be a benefit to me, the other times I tend to use it in the wrong way like I said.