Ramayan: Untold Romance

8. Lakshman's Trauma

Lakshman P.O.V-

Why does Mila have to be so stupid. Like she is so dumb, she knew that we came here to deal with demons and still went to those dark forest far off. And I know it's not my duty to protect her and I know she is self-sufficient. And I know I shouldn't care for her. But..but what can I do? Usse prem jo hai. Chinta toh hogi na.[ English translation: I love her. I will obviously be worried.] Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Love is just stupid. She was gone for like half an hour and I rushed after her like a love sicken puppy. What will I do when we will leave for Ayodhya. I am not supposed to see her again and here I am. With my dumb feelings. I can feel my blood boiling just with the thought of some monster even thinking of harming her. What will I do when she gets married off to someone. You will walk in between the wedding and stop her by confessing your love in the most dramatic way like a typical Bollywood movie. Lakshman growls at his own voice in his mind. Never in a billion years. No. ITS NOT LOVE. I CAN'T BE IN LOVE. I am supposed to serve Ram Bhaiya. This love and all is not for me. And that stupid Mila can't make me weak. She can't defeat me by making that cute pout face and all. I am not falling for her. No way. I am roaming in the forest with such speed, ready to beat the hell out of anyone trying to harm her, even if it costs my life, worried for her so much just because she is bhabhi's sister. That's all. Ram Bhaiya doesn't like it when I fight with her. So that's why even if I hate her, I am going to protect her because I want to serve Bhaiya and bhabhi. Not because I am in love or something stupid like. And even if I am does it matter? She doesn't like me. But whatever. Who cares? Not me. If she di..di..dies right now..I..I will..n..not shed...a..a..t..t..tear. So I am not in love ok? Ok. You are not in love. But why are you explaining so much if you don't have feelings for her, huh? Because Mila is dumb and I hate her. I HATE HER. Everything about her is annoying. Her cute smile when we first met. We met? I thought Ram and Sita were the one meeting? Just shut up ok. You are just as annoying as Mila. And her innocent pout when she is losing in an argument. Her tinkling eyes and smirk when Ram Bhaiya takes her side. Her determined frown and furrowed brows when she is setting up a prank. And her angelic laughter when I fall for them. Laksh- I don't love Mila ok? Also Laksh- Keeps on daydreaming about her. Ugh. No I don't like her. All these things about her annoy me. Then why are you so worried, huh? Told you na, she is bhabhi's sister and also like Ram Bhaiya's sister only. And I can't leave someone to die just because I hate her, ok? I have some morals. No. I mean why are you worried that she doesn't like you. What? I am not-
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The inner battle in Laksh's mind could go on forever. But that not what they are here for, right? They were here to bring back Mila...no..Urmila safe and sound. Gladly Shatrughan wasn't facing an inner dilemma. And had decided to bring Laksh back to reality.

Shatrughan- Laksh, I think that I heard some sobbing sounds from here. And there is a stream nearby as well.

Lakshman- We should leave our horses here only and search on foot.

Shatrughan- Yes bhaiya. If anyone of us falls in trouble, you know our secret code.

Lakshman- Yeah. But I hope it's nothing that serious.

It was not common for Laksh to be some optimistic...to hope. His general attitude towards life was 'jo hoga dekha jayega' [English translation: We will see what happens/ Let's go with the flow] Laksh only let himself and few trusted people have a say in his life. And now this stupid girl was snatching control over everything. His life. His thoughts. His heart. 'You will go and get that girl back to Ram Bhaiya and Sita Bhabhi...and wipe her out'. Laksh said to himself out loud and determined. As if you can. His inner voice warned him but Laksh ignored it and headed towards the dark jungle from where sobs could be heard.